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Wednesday, October 11, 2006
ytd was great, superb, marvellous, fantastic, wonderful, fabulous!i really enjoyed so much. i love the show. rob-b-hood. i love the baby can! the baby is damn cute and funny. love him so much!!!! actually watch the show because got louis koo(gu tian le) one lohs. den in the end. was so mesmerized by the baby. the baby den is the main character can?!?! lols. freaking nice lahs. laugh throughtout the whole movie. laugh until no sound came out from my mouth lohs. cant stop laughing. the whole theatre de ppl are laghing non stop too. really enjoyed it lohs. met yingtao to go wait for jie at workplace. hahahas. den we waited very long for jie lohs. lols. den yingtao buay tahan. den we go buy green tea to drink first. lols. den wait wait wait. jie say her workplace got bus to PS. den we blindly wait at the bus stop. den we ask her take wad bus. she say take number 7. den yingtao take a look at the board. THERE IS NO NUMBER 7 BUS!hahas. okie. so finnaly we took the MRT to PS. hahas. so funny lahs. den met up wif lao da. lols. took the tickets and wait for everybody to come. den went to foodcourt to makan lohs. the food is damn nice la! muahaha. den went in to the theatr after eating. bought nachos and popcorn! muahaha. yum yum! love it. den after the show. we all went home le lohs. just enjoyed mself so much.but all the happiness didnt last long la. this morning. it happened again!i HATE you! dun think u r my mother u can do anithing u wan! i really hate u to the core. have never hated someone so much. how i wish somehow i can leave this house wif jie jie to another place. who gives a damn to u? if ppl say i muz respect u becoz u r my mother afterall. i wun give a damn to them. becoz they are not in our situatuion and they wun understand how we feel! so stop saying wad she brought us up and gave us shelter all this lahs. all this is crap. tired of hearing all this lahs. try putting urself in our shoes and use ur bloody brain and think la hors. stop saying all this kinda crap coz if u were us. u all will do the same as wad we do. wad she brought us up. pls lahs. ITS NOT HER WHO BROUGHT US UP! IS AH MA AND DADDY ALRIGHT?!?!?1?!?!?!?!?!whatever other ppl say about me. say i not filial or whatever bullshit. go on and say becoz i wun give a damn. i noe i am filial can already. i noe i am already a very good daughter can already. i never ever tok back to her. never rebel. never do rebellious things. never shout back. never scold her vulgarities. never do anithing tt wad other ppl do. isint this considered filial already? wad she say i do. wad she wan me to do i do. everything she wans we do. do everything to avoid getting scoldings from HER! isint all this enough to show that i am already very good? why do we still deserve to get scoldings and everything??? WHY WHY WHY!?!?!?!?!?!WHAT SHALL WE DO THEN IS ENOUGH FOR HER? SATISFYING FOR HER? WHAT TO DO DEN IS CONSIDERED GOOD DAUGHTERS? FILIAL DAUGHTERS?!?!?!?!whatever. ppl around me knows that i am filial can already. me and jie to ur eyes. I THINK IS JUST A TOY FOR U TO PLAY WITH. WAYS FOR U TO GET MONEY!tell u wad. i am not gonna support u when u r old. wait till we are grownups and its payback time!wad u do to us. to daddy. to ah ma and all of us. i'm gonna do it 10 times back to u. i dun care about retribution. i dun give a fucking damn to it! coz i think tt i did nth wrong. its just to let u have a taste of what we r going thru. you give me $1 per day huh? $5 for jie jie. tell u wad. i give u $10 for one month!!! go and eat shyt if u dun have money. i wun give a damn. because u r so fucking rich. i think we dun even have to give u money lahs.i am waiting. waiting. waiting for jie to get 21 and we're gonna leave this fucking home of urs. i still rmb u saying that this place. IS YOUR HOME!fine. since its ur home and not our home. take it all u want man! sorry but we dun need YOUR HOME! throw us out if u wan. and u can get ur fucking lover to stay wif u. fucking bitch. i rmb every single words u say. and wait till i grow up. i'm gonna throw all the words 10000 times back to you. get the facts right. u didnt raise us up. is daddy whu is supporting us all the way. ever since he is gone. we have never felt having a home. having parents. but we felt that we are orphans. and worrying that we have no money everyday. u think $1 is fucking enough. go eat shit lahs huh. $1 can onli eat one bowl of noodles without anything can. just plain fucking noodles! pardon me for blurting out all this vulgarities and things. making me look unfilial and disrespectful or whatever bullshit!if you are those tt u think i am being unfilial or u r gonna say that she is my mother afterall. den FUCK OFF! no point saying tt to me. as i have long regarded i am a orphan after my daddy is gone. i have no mother alright!to daddy: daddy i miss u so much. where are you? why did u leave us in the lurch? doing nth to help us? u should have brought us along wif u man. i am really living in hell now. get me out of here, daddy.to him: whenever i need you. where are you? i just cant get u out of my head. i cant! what are you thinking? =(
9:36 PM;
signed off, jeerin
