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Friday, September 29, 2006
my ah ma is finnaly discharged from the hospital and back home finally. i miss her so much.okie. haven't been blogging for days. hahahahas.had been really mugging hard for my studies.got back some of the results. got top in class for english and i think geo. but i jus suck in maths. no matter how much hard work i put into my maths. i jus couldn't get it right. is it i suck or i am just stupid? pure stupid? i really don't have the confidence anymore. what should i do? i really feel so stressed up. miss kaur telling me to work hard and she is very disapointed in my results. i can feel that she is really sad over it. i dun wanna disappoint her. really. i dun wan to waste all her time and effort putting onto me and in the end thats what she get back. i jus hope that i can do well in this end of year. and i am trying all my best. be it fail or pass. i'm gonna do all my best. making sure that i do not disappoint her. thats my aim. if i fail again. i really wouldn't know wad to do anymore.real intensive study starts tml. and i'm giving myself a break so that i could give it all my best from tml onwards. gonna force myself no matter what to study every single thing. not to leak out any. but i'm just afraid that i study so much. once i enter the room. my mind will be blank. thats the worst thing i ever hate. thats what happen to my maths. i really studied hard. everybody can see that. but when i was doing the paper. my mind was really blank. i didn't know what got over me. not to care so much. giving myself some tiny little confidence. i will just give everything a try and my best.i really miss you. i just cant take my eyes off you.
5:04 AM;
signed off, jeerin
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006
phew. my ah ma is alright now. she's feeling better but still staying in hospital. i'm really sorry for not having enough time to go and visit her. because my exams are really round the corner. which is next monday! i went to see her ytd and felt relieved. the whole week i cant visit her. hais. onli can wait till after exams? i'm gonna miss her very much. fine. i'm really mugging hard for my exams and studying everyday except when sleeping and bathing or a bit of slacking time? lols. my head is gonna burst can?lessons as per normal.i failed my english summary. i hate it. i hate myself. i should have done better! what happen to me? i will not fail my EOY. i swear! fail and thats the end of me. did maths during f&n as miss yap wasnt here. i realised i could do and solve more better than last time. hardwork really do pay off. but i'm still very scared. hais. i need to buck up within this one week. hais. nvm. i will work hard. do as much as i can!hahas. everyday tio caught by mrs tan. she cute la. she saw me at staircase and sae' jeerin, i thought school onli allow one ear stud in each ear?' den i sae orh smile smile den walk away. hahaas. today when studying at the study area there. she oso there mahs. i saw her. den i cover my ears. den she see and see and see. den ask me y i studying wif my hands covering my ears. muaahahahahahahaha. she very cute la. but i scared she serious and call me to remove it lohs. next time see her muz run liaos le lahs. lols. hahas. its going 8. which means study time? lols.
4:47 AM;
signed off, jeerin
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Saturday, September 23, 2006
i can't cry. bottling in is so painful. like a big stone pressing onto my heart. somebody teach mi wad to do? LET NOTHING HAPPEN TO MY AH MA. ITS TOO SUDDEN. I DUN WAN ANYTHING TO HAPPEN. I WOULD RATHER THE ONE WHO SUFFER IS MI. DO WHATEVER TO ME IF YOU WAN BUT LEAVE MY AH MA ALONE.tears jus can't stop flowing even though i control hard not to let it flow. what should i do? what can i do? to make her feel better? to make her pain ease? to make her feel that i am wif her? i dunno. i dunno. i dunno. my mind is in a whirl. I HATE MY LIFE!
11:33 PM;
signed off, jeerin
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ytd woke up at around 11+. den started studying around 12. den study till afternoon. got slight headache. den stop studying le. den wanted to take a nap. but i dun hv the habit of taking a nap. so i couldnt fall asleep lohs. hahas. den around 4+ went to orchard wif my mother and sister.damn good SHE is man. hahas. we both spent her money about 200+ lohs. muahahaha. jie bought one pants for $11, one clothes and skirt $79+, one pair of shoes $53. den i bought one shirt for $11, skirt for $34+. hahas. den SHE bought for HERSELF one pair of shoes for $56.den our dinner cost a bomb because we went to thai restaurant. hahas. damn delicious can? lols. den she oso bought famous amos cookie for the first time man. lols. damn nice. i wanted to buy a slipper which i like it so much lohs. but she dun allow. hais. its damn nice and its in blue colour lohs. hais. damn regret not buying it lohs. hais. den walk all the way from orchard to PS. den took the mrt home. reach home around 10. was damn tired. den after bathing and everything. started studying again becoz i wasted one saturday.love spending money!
9:15 PM;
signed off, jeerin
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Friday, September 22, 2006
haven't been blogging for a week. i miss my blog. lols. will be even busier from next week onwards. hais. i'm drained. sleeping late and waking up so early is getting me more and more deteriorated.well. i have forgotten what i have been doing this one whole week except for studying and studying. i shall blog what happen today la. cant remember what i had done le. lols.today as usual. went to school and everything. lols. had p.e today. it was the first time i enoyed p.e. lols. we played floorball. lols. really played so hard can? lols. its damn fun and sweat freaking much can? lols. its really nice to play a nice game once in awhile lahs. coz really get to enjoy it lohs. lols. hahas. the game was really played well. first time me and poy participate and played such a nice game can? lols. okok. it was a great chance for me to vent out all my stress and troubles. shouted here and there. lols. den after that was on the way up to class. ask miss goh. how did we do for the test. she said i didnt do really well. i was so shocked and worried man! was worrying all the way la. den had maths lesson. do and do and do lohs. lols. den finally english lesson le. time to get back results. and i found out i got 30/30. lucky lahs. miss goh really scared me lahs. lols. den i tell her she scared mi. she luff and luff. lols.den after recess. walking up to class tt time. someone came to pull my hair seh. den when i turn back. i found out that is daniel. alamak. den he smile smile smile. den i walk away. lols. den had poa test. it is freaking difficult can? and i am not prepared for it anyway. lols. anyway i already had the thoughts of giving up poa liaos le. i feel like dropping out when i reach sec 4. coz i really cant cope wif it. i dun wan it to affect my results and everything. so mayb it will be a better choice for mi to drop la huh? den i do the test. when hand in. teacher damn sarcastic la. he say i write alot of things. lols. den i added myself. 'all wrong one la'! lols. den he keep laugh laugh laugh lohs. lols. den went down for social studies lohs. getting back test paper oso. got 6/8. hais. not very happy wif it la. should have done better de. nvm. i will work hard for the end of year exam. muahahaha. i wan to do well in it. and i hope i can do it la huh. lols.den after school went straight to find ms kaur to teach us maths. den start to do maths once we sat down. do do do do do. do till around 2++ den we decided to go liaos le. since ms kaur oso busy wif my classmates. den we jus go le lohs.here goes the nice part of my day. decided to go causeway wif wai ting and poy to buy deoderant la. lols. den we dunno to take 187 or 188 to reach causeway. den we think think think. like is 199 la. den we went to take 188 lohs. lols. den in the bus. we keep asking each other whether the bus really got go causeway not. den suddenly a auntie turn back and tell us that 188 goes to chua chu kang! alamak! we took the wrong bus. she oso added that is 187 that goes to causeway. wtf. we should have taken 187 la. lols. so dumb of us rite? our road direction abit lousy la. cannot be blame. lols. so cute la. never. reach lot 1. pray so hard that there oso got sell lahs. lols. den lucky have lahs. den we at there play wif the deoderant. see which one nice. lols. finally. we choose our deoderant lohs. den we went down to makan la. coz poy and wai ting very hungry. lols. den walk around and around but couldnt decide what to eat. lols. they both bought their things. but i havent. sians. lols. den at last. i decided to eat mango pudding. =.= hahahas. den after eating. we decided to go home le lohs. since abit late liaos le. lols. den poy and wai ting top up their card. den we see that the mrt coming for both our trains le. den we rush all the way up. lols. but i was nearly stuck la. couldnt get my freaking wallet out of my bag. lols. but eventually get to board the train la. lols. its really damn fun can? hahahs. why am i here? because i decided to slack for a day. i am really too tired to do anithing. nothing will be going into my brain at all. so y not give myself a break for today? and give it all my best to study tml onwards? i have been very guai everyday le. let me be bad for a day. jus a day will do. give me a break from everything. all the things including studies and things tt i shall not mention. it's giving me too much stress.i just could'nt treat it as nothing happen. i just can't.you are the only answer to it.
5:09 AM;
signed off, jeerin
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Saturday, September 16, 2006
well. see how guai i am.woke up ytd at 1. started studying straight after my meal. studied till 10 at night. hahas. headache. den stop studying le. den slack till 2 wif jie. den went to bed.today woke up at 10 and started studying. den study till now. decided to have a break coz there's still long way to go. hahahas. i'm gonna bomb myself with studies everyday. muahahaha.under stress.....
9:34 PM;
signed off, jeerin
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Friday, September 15, 2006
okok. really did try my best to study hard. and i really did. no time to online. no time to watch tv. no time to do everything. every night wad i can do is to study. ytd oso study study study. coz today got test. dunno will do well not lehs. hais hais hais. dunno lohs. nothing much happen lohs. den today after school. had appointment with ms kaur to study maths. hahahahas. 2 more weeks to exams. everybody work hard and jia you!!! gonna slack for a day. tml start chiong chiong chiong! muahahahanot much to sae. hais.
5:18 AM;
signed off, jeerin
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006
is not i lazy to post hors. is no time man!everyday study study study onli. go school study. remedial. go library study. come home study. everything is about study in my life this few days. give mi a break!forgotten about what happen this few days actually. hahas.okok. ytd went to school. den wad happen in the school i forget liaos le lehs. lols. went to library wif poy to study. hahas. den we enjoyed ourselves there la. damn funny when the two of us are tgt. lols. den minhui came and join us after her remedial. den we went to eat honeydew sago, mango sago and fruit combo sago. lols. we love eating sago can! lols. found out that minhui can eat damn fast. but only honeydew sago! lols. funny la she. hahahas. den after that went home lohs.den it was study study study again. lols.today met poy, wan jun, minhui for breakfast. ate and chat along. after that went to school lohs. den took back f&n test. got 39/50. hais. not very good lohs. sians. wanted to get higher marks de lahs. lols. oso got geo test back. got 10/16. not good oso. sians lahs. i must study harder liaos le lohs. den after school got remedial. at first it was so pathetic. onli 4 turn up for remedial as all the boys including poy and weimon need to attend to d&t coz they never finish their produc.t lols. den jiayun, wan jun, wai ting and me turned up for the remedial onli. ms kaur was damn stunned. lols. after 15 minutes. 3 malay gals came. but the attendance was still damn pathetic lahs. lols. den study study study again lohs. lols. den went home with poy and minhui. chatted and laugh along our way again. lols. we love to joke la! hahahahahas. reached home. had my one and only entertainment which is watch tv! watched for one hour of ge dou den started studying at 8. den study till now. i gonna sleep liaos le. i am freaking tired can??? sians sians sians. yawnz!
7:01 AM;
signed off, jeerin
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Saturday, September 09, 2006
omg omg! somebody called jie and said she is one of the judges assistant ytd. den wants her to join music clinic. she said jie got the potential but jus needed to be groom! muahaha. i knew she can make it. but the prob is now. where do we get the money for her to join music clinic sia. hope tt there's a way lahs.hais.
7:17 PM;
signed off, jeerin
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woke up at 7. went out at 8. chiong down to toa payoh HDB hub by cab. the uncle even wished jie good luck. haha. when we reached there. it was already like omg lahs. so many ppl lohs! guess the first gal wad time was there? 9pm ytd night la. siao man! den we were already 1000++ behind le lohs. den took application form le den we queue up lohs. den when start le. quan yi feng came to our place to interview. den i think jie was caught in the camera le! hahas. funny lahs. den later got ppl come give queue number. call us come back at around 4. hahas. den we faster chiong to kbox to sing lohs. den when reach kbox. kbox oso haven open lohs. hahas. den muz queue again. den there was this two gals queueing up with us. they damn cute lohs. hahas. joke around tgt lahs. they oso joining the audition de. lols. den ate lunch in the kbox lohs. den after that went to see the performance. i miss derrick hoh wei jian! finally get to see him again liaos le lahs. hahas. he is so damn cute can! den stood there from 12.30 to 4+ kao. leg and whole body damn tired. den jie jus started to get in onli. went to BK to sit down coz really cannot tahan liaos le. ate wif zixian and faezah lohs. den its around 5++ going 6 le. den jie's turn finally gonna come. went into the auditorium. den waited quite long again la! den suddenly the judges sae wanna go eat dinner le. make everybody wait so long. sians lahs.jie came out le. but she wasn't in becoz of a high note she cant reach. the judges ponder whether to let her in for very long. but hais. she didn't get in. but nvm. its okie. i believe she can do it de! there's always other chance! jia you jia you jia you!
8:23 AM;
signed off, jeerin
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Thursday, September 07, 2006
muahahaha. didnt know there was such kind hearted ppl left in this world man! someone called me and ask for jeerin ong. hahahas. den she said she found my wallet. den she ju stay beside my block seh. den i went to find her. den i check. she didnt even touch a cent inside lahs. there was around $50 lohs. but she never touch them at all! wow. didnt realised such good ppl still exist lahs. muahahaha. finally man! i got money again liaos le. muahahahahah! phew!went to remedial today again. den after that went to coffeeshop to eat lunch. den poy, beryl, jiayun and me went to library. den we really studied lohs. den before we study. we went to buy tidbits to eat while studying. hahas. den we really studied for 3 hours today. muahaha. den we all hungry again le lahs. lols. den we went to mac eat again. muahaha. this few days with them is only eat eat eat lohs. we four confirm fat de lahs. lols. den after that went popular shopping. muahahaha.give me some time before i can get to let it go. jus some time.
5:15 AM;
signed off, jeerin
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006
met poy at 8.30 for breakfast. den went for remedial.after remedial. went down to xiao gu house n chiong to bugis by cab. hahas. went to temple wif xiao gu, ah ma and ying jie. den after that eat lunch. den went to san gu de shop. sat down n chit chat. after that went shopping.den there was this few ppl. came and approach us. ask us whether we can spare some time and let them cut our hair. omg. then knew is a bunch of taiwanese hairstylist lohs. den we go lohs. free some more seh. den cut went up that time. saw damn lots of ppl. we can ask for any kind of hairstyles or wad lohs. i jus call her anyhow cut lohs. den turn out. mi, xiao gu and ying jie hair almost same same de. den see other ppl de. all oso same same de lohs. hahahas. their kind of style now is like straight straight hair infront. so funny lahs. sians. dunno when my hair will grow again liaos. hais.hahas. ok lahs. never regret or wad lohs. time for tv and homework!!
3:48 AM;
signed off, jeerin
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
you know i wun let go, so let me go instead. was damn tired ytd. slept at 10. hais. dunno y. but i didnt have a good sleep though out the night. went to school for remedial. remedial remedial......he didnt tok to me. not at all. T.Tnahs. smile because he is happy. =) maybe we should be jie and di once again. as we said. jie and di forever huh? in this way maybe we will be as close as that time.
4:00 AM;
signed off, jeerin
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Monday, September 04, 2006
call jie wake mi up at 7.15 but i woke up at 8.20hahas. den prepare le. den went to jurong to study wif jiayun and beryl. waited for this two gal for half an hour. there so hot some more lahs. make mi wait so long. sians. hahas. nvm lahs. i understand. stupid people is lidat de. muahahaha. okie lahs. nvm. den we went to popular to buy things. after that went to the library. went to the 4th floor but it was already ack. so early in the morning, everybody start studying liaos. can dun so guai not? muahaha. den we studied at the 3rd floor. lucky got space for us lohs. hahas. den studied till noon. we put our things at the table and went for lunch. opps. very bad of us. dun let other ppl use. hahas. but we so damn scared our things kena stolen lohs. hahas. but in the end nv lahs. den poy came to join us for lunch den pei us study. hahas. but she nv study lahs. she at there find storybook onli sia. den after that. we created logo and motto for our club. lols. it was so damn fun alright? lols.den after that. we go n eat again. sians. go out wif them. cfm become broke and fat de lohs. but nvm lahs. hahahas. fat den fat together lohs. lols.u're the reason i smile....what can i do to make our relationship as close as last time? teach mi how.
4:28 AM;
signed off, jeerin
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Saturday, September 02, 2006
y do i feel the sense of insecurity? y do i sense that u may leave mi anytime? y do i feel the sense of jealousy? but y doesn't i have the urge to voice out everything to u?someone tell me what to do? a yes or a no?remain like this or be jie and di again?i feel that we were closer last time. ever since that day, we weren't that close anymore. T.Tmaybe i am jus being paranoid or jus making myself so stress up. maybe u dun feel wad i feel becoz u dun realli care?still rmb the first day. i jus couldn't believe my eyes u noe? that msg u send. and everything. i jus couldn't believe. and u said u wanted to wait for mi. its like almost impossible. i still prefer the days that we were so close. i dun wanna noe, if u r playing me....
3:43 AM;
signed off, jeerin
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Friday, September 01, 2006
i miss you.woke up in the morning to go to the airport. reach there around 8. too early le. hahas. went to eat eat breakfast wif wai ting and beryl lohs. hahas. den after tt waited for our china frens to come. den we saw a bus arriving. cfm them la! hahas. den went to see them. den su jing gave mi a letter. hahas. very touchd after reading the letter. i really love them so much. hahas.den photo sessions starts. took alot of photos. smile till mouth cramp le lohs. continuos of ppl taking photo wif us. muahaha. like we are some big idol liddat. lols. den after tt waited for them to check in lohs. den beryl and laahariz went to send up oso. den after that up came over to us. jus to chat chat? lols. den continue taking pics lohs. lols. very very fun lohs. den hug here and there wif them. dun bear to leave sia. hais. den after tt we chat chat chat. den i'm officially the secretary of a club. lols.! up is a new member! lols. shhhhh. hahahahas. when they went into the departure hall. we cried. actually i didnt wan to cry. but when i see shu ting cry. i cant control lohs. she is really cute and nice. she oso cried like hell lohs. hais. gonna miss them all liaos le. i jus cant bear to let them leave. hug everythem and bid farewell. hais. dunno when will we get to see each other again. den yu ting sae we will get to go to china tgt again. i'm so touched. hahas. after this whole thing, i realised i got so close to yuting and laahariz le. and we are in the same club. muahaha. we had so much fun travelling here and there. lols. really had lots of fun lohs. i love our club!
5:05 AM;
signed off, jeerin
