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Friday, September 29, 2006
my ah ma is finnaly discharged from the hospital and back home finally. i miss her so much.okie. haven't been blogging for days. hahahahas.had been really mugging hard for my studies.got back some of the results. got top in class for english and i think geo. but i jus suck in maths. no matter how much hard work i put into my maths. i jus couldn't get it right. is it i suck or i am just stupid? pure stupid? i really don't have the confidence anymore. what should i do? i really feel so stressed up. miss kaur telling me to work hard and she is very disapointed in my results. i can feel that she is really sad over it. i dun wanna disappoint her. really. i dun wan to waste all her time and effort putting onto me and in the end thats what she get back. i jus hope that i can do well in this end of year. and i am trying all my best. be it fail or pass. i'm gonna do all my best. making sure that i do not disappoint her. thats my aim. if i fail again. i really wouldn't know wad to do anymore.real intensive study starts tml. and i'm giving myself a break so that i could give it all my best from tml onwards. gonna force myself no matter what to study every single thing. not to leak out any. but i'm just afraid that i study so much. once i enter the room. my mind will be blank. thats the worst thing i ever hate. thats what happen to my maths. i really studied hard. everybody can see that. but when i was doing the paper. my mind was really blank. i didn't know what got over me. not to care so much. giving myself some tiny little confidence. i will just give everything a try and my best.i really miss you. i just cant take my eyes off you.
5:04 AM;
signed off, jeerin
