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2007-09-01T07:59:00.000-07:00

how long had it been since i blogged? i don't really know also. had the urge to start blogging but perhaps not everyday. maybe when i have the time, i would.

time flies, i can't believe i'm taking 'O's in about a month time. it's just so unbelieveable. it's stressful and tough, but as what teacher had said. studies is just like a race. we are at the last lap of our race and we cannot give up. the only way is to sprint and catch up with everyone else. it's really true, i don't want to waste my 10 years of studies just like that. i must make sure that i really sprint fast enough.

sometimes i feel so stressed up that i don't feel like touching the books at all. i will just watch tv and use computer. sometimes i just feel like giving up.

tomorrow cutting hair. scared that it looks weird on me ! can't be bothered, just go and cut. if it's not, then hair grows right? haha. self comforting.

ytd was teacher's day. went school for the perfomance and games. practically, the perfomance sucks. but the games was fun though i never play. then gave card to ms yap and she said she ws=as touched. i msged mrs choy and surprisingly, she still remembers me. i miss primary school days and my teachers over there. i didn't go back because pratically no one went back i think. it had been 4 years already and maybe the teachers had already long forgotten me.

lost touch of blogging already, i don't really know what to blog about. maybe it takes time for me to pick the habit of blogging up again.

will try to update soon, maybe another week or tomorrow with my new haircut? haha.

to everyone : i using this url temporarily, cause you know. i'm lazy! haha. perhaps after my exams i will spend time doing up my blog. =D

2006-12-08T07:44:00.000-08:00

socialising is important. that goes without saying.

hallucinations. get a life !

before getting a new blog, i shall not mention much.

getting a new blog soon, new skin, new posts, new url.

2006-12-07T02:18:00.001-08:00

haven't been blogging for a few days. have been going out quite a lot recently. well.

went to watch open season. not that great but funny though. well. been spending time at the arcade all because of my cousin. jie and me would never ever do that and waste our money. fun but heartaching when u see the money deducting from the card.

i shall not waste anymore time. after this week of fun. next week will be hardwork already. been wasting lots of time. must read more storybooks. 6 more storybooks awaiting for my to read. must complete them and my homework next week.then the rest of the holidays will be more relaxing. i shall start revising on my maths, more practice and assesments for me.

once next year starts, there will be no more fun, games and relax. i know it's gonna be real tough. but i'm gonna buck up and get into a study mode. i want to start early and not panic at the last minute. the thing i want to concentrate most now is chinese. A1 here i come ! once i get A1 for chinese, it will be easier to concentrate on other subjects. getting A1 won't be too big a problem. so, work hard !

it's less than a month of holidays, so lets play hard and at the same time, tune yourself back to the school and study mode. we're gonna pass with flying colours !

2006-12-07T02:18:00.000-08:00

haven't been blogging for a few days. have been going out quite a lot recently. well.

went to watch open season. not that great but funny though. well. been spending time at the arcade all because of my cousin. jie and me would never ever do that and waste our money. fun but heartache when u see the money deducting from the card.

i shall not waste anymore time. after this week of fun. next week will be hardwork already. been wasting lots of time. must read more storybooks. 6 more storybooks awaiting for my to read. must complete them before next week. complete all my homework next week too. then the rest of the holidays will be more relaxing. i shall start revising on my maths too. more practice and assesments for me.

once next year starts, there will be no more fun, games and relax. i know it's gonna be real tough. but i'm gonna buck up and get into a study mode. i want to start early and not panic till the last5 minute. the thing i want to concentrate most now is chinese. A1 here i come ! once i get A1 for chinese, it will be easier to concentrate on other subjects. getting A1 won't be too big a problem. so, work hard !

it's less than a month of holidays, so lets play hard and at the same time, tune yourself back to the school and study mode. we're gonna pass with flying colours !

2006-12-02T01:19:00.000-08:00

arcade was fun ! met with jie and carmen. rotting around PS and playing arcade. hahas. waited till night when xia and xian came. went to watch happy feet ! quite a funny show. i quite like it. after the movie went to grab a bite. and headed home.

kbox wif ying tao, jie and wenjie. fun fun fun ! love it so much ! love kbox and singing. sing your hearts out man. scream, sing aloud, jump here and there. it's so damn fun ! bought food to kbox to eat. which is not allowed. but who cares? took turns to guard and block the door, not allowing anyone out there to spot us eating outside food. hahas. sang from 2 to 6. after kbox was neoprint time ! took neoprints tgt with them. shall upload next time. after taking the neoprints, went to arcade again. this time yingtao treat us. played $40. opps. that was alot huh. hahas. enjoyed myself so much man ! after playing arcade, we went to eat dinner. me and jie only ate salad and chicken wing. one big plate of salad, we just ate a bit, and one piece of chicken we share. muahaha. on diet la ! then send wenjie back and took cab home.

went tuition just now and had a math test. turn out that we can bring the test paper home. chey. shall ask jie to help me with it already. haha. the teacher call me to talk more. erm. i dont want la. cause i dont know them yet.

HER attitude has changed. we shall see. if she really change and treat us better. we will also treat her very good. she is afterall our mother. hope she really will repent.

2006-11-27T18:11:00.000-08:00

I HATE HER I HATE HER !

slap is all she knows.

i totally lost control of myself don't know where my courage came from. and once it's out. it can't be stopped. i should have called police. grab her and sue her for child abuse. i wanted to so badly. if not being stopped by jie. i would have done it.

i don't need a mother. and in fact. i dont have a mother !

don't ever let me lose control anymore. argh !

2006-11-26T06:47:00.000-08:00

i here to blog. so that goes to prove that my blog's not rotting ! =)

friday early in the mornin had Bk as breakfast. it was marvellous ! went arcade to play and spent money. had so much fun. lunch was sushi at lot1. it's so delicious. muahaha. i miss sushi !

saturday was tuition. i kept quiet almost during every tuition lessons. it's so unlike me ! i can't get used to it. although i get to learn some things. but i don't think it's quite good over there. gonna try out for a few months first ba.

today did nothing much. rent vcd's then rot at ah ma house. watch ghost show. haha. shall not mention it. hmm hmm. nothing much already.

i have completed my third storybook and i'm gonna read more more more !

2006-11-23T03:12:00.000-08:00

ying and me. loves =)

today was superb !

met ying and xiao gu at jurong to buy dye and ingredients for baking cake. dyed my hair when we reach home. muahaha. dyed a few strands but turn out to be so obvious. jie keep say i like ah lian. hais.

the cake we bake for wen's birthday !

after dying hair, we started baking the cake for wen. haha. nice right ? looks delicious huh ? hahas. first time baking this kind of cake and it turn out quite well. but some turn out not very nice because IT'S OUR FIRST TIME ! well. today was really fun and great. enjoyed my time with them.

tomorrow gotta eat sushi. not very looking forward to it.

2006-11-21T18:33:00.000-08:00

havent been blogging for a few days.

did spend a few days productively, reading storybooks. have read 2 storybooks already and starting on the third one.

this few days almost spend my time at home, wif jie. wif her it wont be boring anymore. hahas. she's an ass ! =x

ytd went to ah ma hse early in the morning with jie to eat breakfast with them. it was a bad luck day can ! first thing in the morning i cant find my shoe. then the freaking bus cause us to be late. we waited 20 minutes for the fucking bus. then reach woodlands, we were already damn late. then took a cab la. then on the way got accident, jam the whole traffic. making us more late and making the meter jump and jump non stop ! i hate taking cabs ! halfway i already feel naseous and then i started trembling. i cant take cabs alright. i will get dizzy and want to vomit. then when reaching bbatok already. i already want to vomit already. i keep cover my hands on my mouth, very scared i may vomit out la. when reach already i faster dash out of the cab. but i didnt vomit. then met up with xiao gu, ah ma, er gu and kaiwen to eat breakfast. when they see me they know something's wrong with me already. i kept very very quiet then my face damn pale and my hand keep trembling. i very weak ah ! then after awhile ok already. then ordered food. i crave for roti prata. so i ordered. when the roti prata comes. yucks ! the curry is freaking salty and spoil my whole mood. i normally love the curry and would want more of the curry. but ytd i ate plain roti prata without anything ! freaking bad day can !

then went to graduation thing at the afternoon. all the graduation classes were there. they dyed their hair, style their hair and did whatever they were not allowed to do in school. hahas. so nice can. hahas. next year's gonna be our turn already. can't wait for it to come !

2006-11-17T18:58:00.000-08:00

met up with poy, wan jun and her brother.

went to vivo again. haha. went to vivomarket to shop for food and went to arcade to play awhile before we headed to sentosa. played with sand, water frisbee. haha. it was quite fun though. poy wanted to rent rollerskate and bicycle, but we were at palawan and the rental shop is at siloso. so me and poy decided to walk there, thinking that it won't be that far. we walked and walked and walked. omg ! it's a long journey ok ! it was really tiring. we went to check out the fees and we need to go back palawan again ! this time round, we decided to take the beach tram, but in the end we walk the whole journey again because there was a bunch of small kids and we were worried that the tram not enough space for the small kids. so we decided to walk back. haha. how kind of us huh ? in the end, we didnt rent the bicycle and rollerskate. hahas. went to eat and then bath. proceeded to PS to shop. how wonderful is the air con ! muahaha. walk and shop around, playing with toys with poy. hahas. it's really fun playing with her la ! hahas.

called jie and ask her where to meet her. then when i put down the phone. another call came, is jie de phone but some voices i don't know one spoke to me. then i hear a lot of voice behind laughing away. then erika, jasmine and carmen came walking to me wif jie's phone. haha. is them disturbing me on the phone. haha. after that parted with poy, wan jun and her bro and went shopping with jie, erika, jasmine and carmen. then went to eat dinner and headed home.

it was fun ! holidays are enjoyable though.

going for tuition again.

2006-11-16T06:21:00.000-08:00

went vivo !

muahaha. walked from 11.30 till 6 ! muahaha. we had so much fun. taking lots of pics.
went to the man made beach and played with the water with ying. after that we went to arcade play ! haha. it's so fun! then zixian came and join me,ying and xiao gu. we went window shop for awhile and went to banquet to take a sit. sat down and drink water while waiting for jie to come.
around 2 when jie and carmen arrived. then we went to have our lunch. we were so hungry !
after the lunch we went to play arcade againand qiuyan came and join us. haha. after that we went to buy a tortoise de hp strap. me, ying, jie and xian bought same de. hahas. after buying, we went to shop around till around 5+ then we went up to watch the sunset ! hahas.

it was enjoyable and i really love going out with them !

tml is gonna be fun at sentosa !

2006-11-15T03:53:00.000-08:00

haven't been blogging for a few days because holidays are really boring. rotted at home for the past two days.

guess what?

today first day of tuition ! muahaha. long time never tuition le lah. don't know since primary what don't have tuition already. still remember last time tuition can scared till stomachache la. lols. now won't la. but i'm still very scared at first la. the tuition place located at serangoon. then my aunty is work in that shopping center de office one. then is she call me go to the tuition place. the tuition teacher very joker one. haha. laugh through out the whole session lohs. hahas. then the people there quite friendly. it's only a small group. only got 3 guys and 2 gals. hahas. quite enjoyable la. i so quiet today la. which is so unlike me. but no choice. i don't know them de mahs. and they started tuition there from primary school le. so they know each other so well. hais. well. hope to know them soon lohs. awaiting for saturday's tuition to come. hahas.

tomorrow and fri will be a fun day.
tomorrow going vivo city with jie, ying, and xiao gu. muahahaha. gonna enjoy man !
friday going beach ! muahahahaha. can't wait la. hope time faster pass man !

oh ya. and i borrowed my second book today le. muahahaha !

2006-11-10T02:53:00.000-08:00

finally it's over !

so tired this two days. been having tests. waking up at 4+ to study.

humanities wasn't that difficult because i think i had put in a lot of effort into it. what about biology ? i have been studying for social studies of cause no time study biology ma. EXCUSES ! haha . did study for it. but i think i'm not gonna score for it.

well. today was chinese, maths and english. my eyelids was so heavy the whole day. english was quite difficult because i think that i didnt do well for it. not to mention maths. its terrible like before. its always difficult for me no matter how hard i studied for it. chinese was quite alright. managed to complete it in time. lucky i did study for it. but i know i got one question wrong le ! argh ! hais. well. it's all over. what i need to focus now is my o levels. well. maybe starting my tuition next wed le. hais. not gonna be free on wed and sat anymore. it's gonna be tuition day ! haha.

it's holidays now. i'm gonna play hard and at the same time. give it all my best to study.

to you: why can't i get you off my mind ? why is it whenever i see you, my attention is always drawn to you. why why why ? can you answer all my questions ?

2006-11-07T23:53:00.000-08:00

a great sorry to miss fun . it's really words of anger. i'm sorry sorry. we beg you to stay please.

hais.

i regret whatever i said.

monday when you talked to us. i cried. i felt so remorseful and i just cried. i regret having said words that are hurtful and i apologise on everybody's behalf. we want you to stay. please don't go.

really in a damn bloody mood now.

2006-11-05T03:55:00.000-08:00

swimming swimming swimming !

muahaha. went swimming wif jie and zixian. muahaha. enjoyed myself so much. and now i'm as red as lobster. very pain and hot. muahaha. swam for around 3 hours ? don't know le. cause we swim till very long. hahas. really enjoyed going out wif them man ! i wan more swimming sessions ! all jie's fault that i drank lots of water man ! keep call me learn trapwater. so difficult lahs. but finally i learnt frog style le. but still used to using freestyle. well. just not that good in swimming. but i love it !

tml school again le lahs. tiring man. one more week and i'm gonna endure this period. get thru it and i get to enjoy myself for a short period. hahas.

i can't get you off my mind. why did you barge into my life ?

2006-11-04T00:56:00.000-08:00

my blog had some problems ytd night. well. it's always like that.

our class have a new classmate, Grace. a transfer student from hong kah sec. she's quite a nice girl, friendly too. well. easy to talk along with.

finally i did something today. i woke up and started doing my homework. completed all the homework, tired. sat down in front of my computer, and started watching ye man wang fei. haha. very addicted to that show.

i started reading storybooks as mentioned. its quite tough for me to read fast, my pace is slow, i know. but efforts are being put in. trying to complete it by next week. and get myself another book again. building up interests for story books, to improve on my english ? well. thats the only thing i could do.

rest till night and i gonna start learning chinese and continue with my storybooks.

swimming tomorrow ! yipee ! muahaha. i miss swimming. =)

2006-11-02T04:12:00.000-08:00

11.2.2004 now it's 11.2.2006.

it has been two years. flash backs in my minds. thinking of you. if you were not gone from this world, i would never feel the loneliness i had never felt before. why did you choose to leave us, letting us to bear with all tha pains and sufferings without you by our side ? this question will remain a mystery. everyday after school, i come back to a place where i felt coldness, unlike the days when i always felt the warmth you showered on us. many a times, i tried to hold back my tears, but i can't. thinking of the past, whenever I feel sad or down, you would always be the one to encourage me, cheer me up. but you never did reprimand me for my wrongdoings. remembered you saying you don't like us to study in poly. now here i am striving to get into Jc, the hope you had for us. you wanted me to study hard, but i never did when you were still with me. but i will make sure i do you proud, i will study hard to get good results for you to see.

daddy i miss you so. where are you ?

COME BACK TO ME !

2006-10-31T06:52:00.000-08:00

got to school in time today. hahas. had lesson wif mr tay. which was quite fun. singing lessons ? hahas . quite fun after all.

found that mr tham was not that bad after all. quite enjoyed his lessons. his lessons were not boring. didnt require as to do much too. he very funny and cute ? muahaha. the first time i ever had positive opinions towards him.

heard from mr tay that we wll be having a new classmate tml. muahaha. from hong kah sec, a girl and probably a chinese bahs. cant wait to make new friends huh. hahas. and probably will be mixing wif us coz there are no other chinese girls in our class except us. lols. maybe she hangs out wif malays we don't know.

had mother tongue lessons which i do not really enjoy having becoz of the teacher? hahas. if she didnt nag tt much, maybe i would like her? upon hearing tt she would not be our chi teacher next yr. i am quite relieved. i noe this should not be the kind of attitude i should have. but i am jus so pissed wif her. * for some reasons*

went to library to borrow books le. muz start to read storybooks liaos le. hahas.

went home and faster do homework. hahas. didnt want to accumulate them till last minute bahs.

i wan tuition !

2006-10-30T00:53:00.000-08:00

hasn't been blogging for the weekends as nothing much happen la. lols. coz i two days staying and slacking at home doing nothing. but i was so engrossed in watching wei xiao pasta ! it's really damn nice can ! hahas. cant watch finish yet. its really so addictive tt i cant stop watching it. hahas.

today is the first day of sch once again. it's gonna last for two weeks. i'm gonna work hard too ! erms. gotta borrow quite many storybooks to read le. going to finish one storybook at least in a week lahs. dun wanna waste time anymore. hahas. tml muz go library to borrow books le. hees.

=)

2006-10-26T01:50:00.000-07:00

teachers are stubborn ! cant take report book today la. coz miss ng say muz have parents come. but i still go and see my results la.

was very disappointed with myself. L1R4 i got 20 leh ! although improved by 4 points. but i really hate it can . i'm aiming for 10 this time round for my o levels. jia you ! i really very sadden over it lohs. hais. and i'm gonna show HER tt i can do it de.

after taking results went to ah ma hse. den took cab to JP for shopping with xiao gu. muahaha. bought shoes. same kind as jia ying jie and jie. muahaha. thanks alot to ah ma for buying me the shoes. it's really wonderful going out wif ah ma, xiao gu and jie. i love them so much ! they are the one tt make me smile ! hahas. without them i dun think i can survive . and not forgetting jia ying jie. i'm waiting for u to eat pizza wif us hor ! love u lots !

tml gonna slack around doing nth. have to play hard for this few days before monday comes ! den i will be busy studying for 2 weeks already.

jia you !

2006-10-25T05:31:00.000-07:00

ytd went to faezah house coz it was HARI RAYA ! muahaha. ate alot of nice food la. love malay food can ! coz its really nice lohs. especially thier beef ! or isit lamb ? i dunno la. just nice. and their kuehs and pastries are wonderful and marvellous lohs. ate non stop. muahaha. den slack at faezah house wif jie and zixian lohs. den later on jie de friend, weicheng came oso. den slack around in faezah room. but decided to go off around 4. zixian was just staying opposite to faezah house. so convenient can. lols ! went to zixian house. woohoo ! freaking big tv. i'm loving it ! so enjoyable to watch tv at her house loh ! den ate prawn mee ! ZIXIAN I MISS YOUR PRAWN MEE ! the best prawn mee i've ever ate. i have never liked prawn mee. but i love zixian mother de prawn mee ! muahaha. when can i ever get to eat it again ?? den jie, zixian weicheng and zixian de bro play mahjong. den i alone at there watching MTV on zixian de big big big tv ! muahaha.

to zixian: I WANT PRAWN MEE !

wednesday:
last day of school ! muahaha. class cleaning today was fun ! didnt want to help to clean up at first, but initially i did. muahaha. it was really fun. cleaning tables, windows, boards and everything. muahaha. splashed water all along the corridoor ! muahaha. den use the hose to spray water at poy . =x sorry .

get ourselves wet and play along with everybody. muahaha. it was real fun !

after recess went up for live band concert. erms. it wasnt really that nice. didnt enjoy it either. find it quite awful actually. hahas. but nvm lahs. den after that is shuqun awards la.
sians. i want mdm lee back ! hais. ever since mdm lee has gone. and this miss ng become our form teacher. we have never ever won any prize. when mdm lee was our form teacher. every prize and everything we cfm get one lohs. now. not even one can ! hais. miss ng is freaking like shyt ! i miss mdm lee ah !!!!

decided to go west coast park wif beryl, poy, wai ting and jia yun. muahahahas. went to beryl house to watch goong while poy and jia yun go home and change first. hahas. watch till around 2.30 den we took cab down to WCP. hahas. den eat lunch at mac there lohs. eat halfway then start to rain. wa lao. we want to play de lohs. den after that we decided to play in the rain lahs. hahas. took off my shoes and played barefooted. hahas. very fun lohs. run around, screaming around, getting ourselves wet. hahahas. at a point of time. 5 of us shouted so loudly tgt at the playground there. it was so shiok can ! den spin ourselves and getting ourselves freaking giddy. muahaha. shout till no voice lohs. haha. alot of things i dun dare play de. coz i very scared de lahs. hahas. den play wif sand and everything lohs.

really felt so relaxed and really had fun today ! muahahaha !

2006-10-23T08:16:00.000-07:00

course as usual for today . its quite fun though. hahas. love the part where we blindfold and taste the food. muhahaha. i love wasabi and soya sauce ! lols. nice nice. wanted to eat again de lohs. but they dun allow. lols. where is the sushi to go along wif the soya sauce and wasabi ? hahahas. den the course ended at 3.30 ! omg . hahas.

actually wanted to pei poy eat lunch. but it was like. so late le and we so freaking tired. dunno why la.

oh ya ! there was this station where we have to get our eyes concentrated on the boxes and guess which box the doll will be in. so once we click the start button, the box start to moves. the highest lvl i can reach is lvl 7 onli ! i sucks in all this lahs . hahahas. my score is like way below everybody lohs ! lols. but it was the most fun section la ! hahas. no wonder i get my eyes so tired for the whole day ! the teacher said my eyes were moving so fast wif the boxes that he wanted to laugh ! hahaha.

tml holiday ! muahahaa. can sleep late late le lahs. tonight i must chiong maple liaos !

2006-10-20T20:07:00.000-07:00

here to blog blog.

ytd went to school. den slack for one hour without teacher in the air con room waiting for the ppl to come. lols. den they come le. then started wif the course. tok tok tok tok. it was quite alright lohs. we have 6 stations ytd lahs. hahas

den came to one station which is called 'fear factor' . hmm. starting they call us walk across the tables and chairs and jump down. okie lahs. i jus walk and jump. nth wrong or wad. then they said they wan blindfold us and make us walk. wa lao. i was the first few to go up lohs. cecilia lead me up lohs. i nearly cry lahs. then found out when u jump. you will be jumping onto a table de lahs. not jump down to the floor. hahas. den it was quite alright.

the next one was freaking scary can ? it freaked me out lohs. they took out a box of worms. telling us we have to eat that wif our blindfolds on. but i knew it from my friends that they will just be throwing some maggie mee into our mouth. i was quite relieved upon hearing that. but that when i heard poy scream from the other room. i knew it was scary. den cecilia came in and tell me they would put the worms onto our hands and mouth to let us feel it. i was damn scared and frightened. den i cry and say i dun wan play. i took out my blindfold. den poy they all came to tell me to play. say not scary all this. den jiayun lead me to the room. den when it was near to my turn. i simply cried and took out my blindfold and really didnt want to play at all. den in the end i was the only person who didnt try it. I HATE INSECTS CAN !

ytd night actually wanted to go vivio city watch deathnote de lahs. but no tickets le lohs. it was fully booked. den jie they all booked cathay de lohs. den met up wif jie and yt and qiuyan at PS. then they brought me go makan. hahas. den makan le went to shopping for food to bring in theatre lohs. den met up wif zixian, laoda and nizam. hahas. den the place was so packed wif ppl can. and the theatre we are going into is the grand theatre lohs. freaking big and nice lahs. hahahas. den went into the theatre to watch lohs. DEATHNOTE IS REALLY NICE !
loving it ! hahas. L is so handsome lohs. =P but he look so gay in the movie. in the comic he really very handsome. hahas. gonna have part 2 of the movie and i'm gonna watch it .

den after the movie we went to kfc makan coz zixain and nizam haven eat. hahas. den tok tok tok until 10++ den go home. hahas.

really enjoy going out with them !

2006-10-19T05:55:00.000-07:00

early in the morning. waited for poy at the interchange. but i knew she is late or what de. den she dun have handphone seh. den called her house lohs. den her dad picked up. den call her. muahahaha. poy asked me what time is it man ! its going 7 le and she is still in bed lahs. hahahahas.

thought she never come school. but after flag raising. saw her running towards us. lols. poor her. had to stay at school do D&T. hahas. wanted to pull her along to egg plant de. but cannot.

visit to egg plant was boring can ! it was so long and tired. stand so long. den the person tok so much lohs. aiyoh. nvm lahs. got to eat fresh and nice eggs. muahaha. very nice to eat lohs. hee hee .

erms. got the news tt i passed and got promoted to sec 4 express ! i'm really happy to hear that. those who make it to promote. congratulations. and those who don't work hard and strive for the better ! we will always be there for you all !

jia you jia you jia you !

i'm gonna study real hard for my O level le. gonna show HER that i can do it. i aim A1 for my maths. to show her tt i can do well in maths too. dun wanna let HER look down on me. I HATE HER !

2006-10-17T05:35:00.000-07:00

i hate the haze !

its killing me. its so damn smelly can !

today nothing to do at school lahs. early in the morning we had sexuality talk wif miss goh. hahas. she is a very good cher. lols. den tok tok tok tok. lame things la. hahas. den around 10 finish the talk le. den we got free perido mahs. den poy brought uno cards. den we decided to play heart attack. hahas. den we ask miss goh wanna play not. den she jus come and play wif us. muahaha. never consider seh. lols. den play play play.

oh ya. my hands are having blue blacks becoz of poy fang !

hahas. den showed miss goh. think she scared of poy fang oso. lols. den i always shout loudly when i got all the cards. den they all will suddenly shout and throw their cards and immediately place their hands down. muahahahaha. miss goh is always shocked by me de lahs. whenever i shout. she will be so shocked that she cant respond to it. den everybody hands place properly for me to whack le. she haven. muahaha. den muz put on top. den we will always let her squeeze in between de lohs. hahahahas. but a few times oso hit till her lehs. she so ke lian.

but ITS FUN! first time hit teacher lahs. lols.

she's really good. hahahas

ONCE AGAIN. i hate HER ! dun piss me anymore. i will really stab you to death ! i really hate you so much ! what can i do ?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I WILL REALLY WAIT FOR JIE TO BE 21 AND GET OURSELVES OUT OF YOUR HOUSE ! get prepared to stay in ur own house urself lahs. whatever shit ! I HATE YOU I HATE YOU !

2006-10-13T07:50:00.000-07:00

hais. really disappointed with myself. i failed maths. but on the other hand, i am happy that i improved much much more. i always get single digits for my maths. once miss kaur became my teacher. it began to improve. guess how much i got? 59/140! 11 more marks. hais. really sad.

den got back chinese paper. erms. was very happy wif my results. 66.5/80. hmmm. good huh? lols. den paper 1 got 46/70. hahas. okie le lahs. not bad liaos. i aimed for higher de lohs.

den its english. hais. did real badly. but lucky i passed. hmm. got 64/110 i think. sucks can? hais. dunno wad to do to improve on it lohs. hais.

gotta study harder le. i wanna get a pass for my maths! jia you!

went to expo wif IT members. daniel tag along wif us. hmm. got to know him thru jiayun, cc inn. hahas. daniel is a nice guy. lols. hmm. quite enjoyed the trip but not the facilities there but it was fun hanging out wif them. lols.

2006-10-12T00:05:00.000-07:00

baby mathew! simply love him so much!

2006-10-11T21:36:00.000-07:00

ytd was great, superb, marvellous, fantastic, wonderful, fabulous!

i really enjoyed so much. i love the show. rob-b-hood. i love the baby can! the baby is damn cute and funny. love him so much!!!! actually watch the show because got louis koo(gu tian le) one lohs. den in the end. was so mesmerized by the baby. the baby den is the main character can?!?! lols. freaking nice lahs. laugh throughtout the whole movie. laugh until no sound came out from my mouth lohs. cant stop laughing. the whole theatre de ppl are laghing non stop too. really enjoyed it lohs.

met yingtao to go wait for jie at workplace. hahahas. den we waited very long for jie lohs. lols. den yingtao buay tahan. den we go buy green tea to drink first. lols. den wait wait wait. jie say her workplace got bus to PS. den we blindly wait at the bus stop. den we ask her take wad bus. she say take number 7. den yingtao take a look at the board. THERE IS NO NUMBER 7 BUS!
hahas. okie. so finnaly we took the MRT to PS. hahas. so funny lahs. den met up wif lao da. lols. took the tickets and wait for everybody to come. den went to foodcourt to makan lohs. the food is damn nice la! muahaha.

den went in to the theatr after eating. bought nachos and popcorn! muahaha. yum yum! love it.
den after the show. we all went home le lohs.

just enjoyed mself so much.

but all the happiness didnt last long la. this morning. it happened again!
i HATE you! dun think u r my mother u can do anithing u wan! i really hate u to the core. have never hated someone so much. how i wish somehow i can leave this house wif jie jie to another place. who gives a damn to u? if ppl say i muz respect u becoz u r my mother afterall. i wun give a damn to them. becoz they are not in our situatuion and they wun understand how we feel! so stop saying wad she brought us up and gave us shelter all this lahs. all this is crap. tired of hearing all this lahs. try putting urself in our shoes and use ur bloody brain and think la hors. stop saying all this kinda crap coz if u were us. u all will do the same as wad we do. wad she brought us up. pls lahs. ITS NOT HER WHO BROUGHT US UP!
IS AH MA AND DADDY ALRIGHT?!?!?1?!?!?!?!?!
whatever other ppl say about me. say i not filial or whatever bullshit. go on and say becoz i wun give a damn. i noe i am filial can already. i noe i am already a very good daughter can already. i never ever tok back to her. never rebel. never do rebellious things. never shout back. never scold her vulgarities. never do anithing tt wad other ppl do. isint this considered filial already? wad she say i do. wad she wan me to do i do. everything she wans we do. do everything to avoid getting scoldings from HER! isint all this enough to show that i am already very good? why do we still deserve to get scoldings and everything??? WHY WHY WHY!?!?!?!?!?!

WHAT SHALL WE DO THEN IS ENOUGH FOR HER? SATISFYING FOR HER? WHAT TO DO DEN IS CONSIDERED GOOD DAUGHTERS? FILIAL DAUGHTERS?!?!?!?!

whatever. ppl around me knows that i am filial can already. me and jie to ur eyes. I THINK IS JUST A TOY FOR U TO PLAY WITH. WAYS FOR U TO GET MONEY!
tell u wad. i am not gonna support u when u r old. wait till we are grownups and its payback time!
wad u do to us. to daddy. to ah ma and all of us. i'm gonna do it 10 times back to u. i dun care about retribution. i dun give a fucking damn to it! coz i think tt i did nth wrong. its just to let u have a taste of what we r going thru.

you give me $1 per day huh? $5 for jie jie. tell u wad. i give u $10 for one month!!! go and eat shyt if u dun have money. i wun give a damn. because u r so fucking rich. i think we dun even have to give u money lahs.

i am waiting. waiting. waiting for jie to get 21 and we're gonna leave this fucking home of urs. i still rmb u saying that this place. IS YOUR HOME!

fine. since its ur home and not our home. take it all u want man! sorry but we dun need YOUR HOME! throw us out if u wan. and u can get ur fucking lover to stay wif u. fucking bitch. i rmb every single words u say. and wait till i grow up. i'm gonna throw all the words 10000 times back to you.

get the facts right. u didnt raise us up. is daddy whu is supporting us all the way. ever since he is gone. we have never felt having a home. having parents. but we felt that we are orphans. and worrying that we have no money everyday. u think $1 is fucking enough. go eat shit lahs huh. $1 can onli eat one bowl of noodles without anything can. just plain fucking noodles!

pardon me for blurting out all this vulgarities and things. making me look unfilial and disrespectful or whatever bullshit!

if you are those tt u think i am being unfilial or u r gonna say that she is my mother afterall. den FUCK OFF! no point saying tt to me. as i have long regarded i am a orphan after my daddy is gone. i have no mother alright!

to daddy: daddy i miss u so much. where are you? why did u leave us in the lurch? doing nth to help us? u should have brought us along wif u man. i am really living in hell now. get me out of here, daddy.

to him: whenever i need you. where are you? i just cant get u out of my head. i cant! what are you thinking?

=(

2006-10-10T00:48:00.000-07:00

finally finish exams le! woohoo!

muahahahahaha. i'm loving it. no exams. no need study. just play and relax. muahahaha. good good. gonna really enjoy this few days. lols.

had f&n exams today. did really badly. i was so tired thru out the whole paper. my eyelids were very heavy since this morning when i woke up. i admit tt i didnt really study much for it. cause it was really too tough. and i didnt really memorise it. so i completed section A in half an hour! section A was easy as i did study for that. F&N really kills can? we are required to write 3 essays. wtf lahs. hais. i onli managed to write one which is good de. the other two i really dunno how to write. my mind blank. i only wrote half a page for this two questions. and i think the points were all irrelevant can? hais. i dunno lahs. if it wasn't so demanding, i think i would have done better. hais. i dunno wad to do. i felt real guilty. i just wrote so little things and i dun give a damn to it and i just fall asleep. my head just lied onto the table and i fell asleep. i was really too tired, cause i studied till 12 ytd night. but nothing went into my head.

miss yap didnt revise with us. the last week for revision. she didnt turn up for 6 lessons. wonder how much she could teach for such long periods? hais. i dun think i can pass my theory. so i jolly well pass my coursework. hais. i aimed for A1 for F&N. but my wish is ruined in my hands. well. i'm not cut out for studies? hais.

really hope i could really make it to sec 4 this year. i dun wan retain or drop into NA. hais. i did put in alot of effort. hope i can do it.

hahas. like gonna depression liaos le lohs. nvm lahs. what done is undone. just wait for friday to come. then can get back results le lohs. pray hard man!
den went to je to watch world trade center wif poy, minhui, beryl, jiayun and wai ting. muahahaha. so nice lahs. den before we went in. went to eat kfc. hahas. very long never go out together le. love it man. world trade center was nice. very touching and sad.

i hate terrorist!

treasure those people around you before they are gone.

i miss you..

2006-10-09T01:22:00.000-07:00

muahahaha. my blog got song le! all thanks to zixian! thanks a million.

只对你有感觉.

thats what i want to say to you. i should have given up long ago. but i cant. just cant. you know how difficult it is? you won't know. trying so hard to give u up.

whatever.

hmm hmm. had poa exam today. muahaha. i only know one question onli lahs. lols. i hate poa can? lols. didnt even study. except for memorising one format. other than tt. i did nth to it. lols. the only question i know how to do is the format tt i memorised. muahahaha. if i study others, maybe i can do it? lols. i doubt.

one more paper left to go. i am rotting away already. no mood to study. just wanna have my breaks and play time. lols. but no no no. gotta study for tml f&n paper. i need to strive for A1 for that. i hope i can. but its difficult memorising the content can? hais. having headache nowadays.

ytd morning. woke up study awhile. have headache liaos. den ate one panadol den feel better. den now the headache comes again. i'm gonna take one panadol and start studying. confirm cannot study finish by 10. cfm muz burn midnight oil again. i hate it.

endure one more day and its play time! muahahaha. gonna enjoy my holidays!

2006-10-06T01:22:00.000-07:00

new blog skin. lalala. love my blog. (done by my sis)

didnt blog for whole week le. hahas. finally got the chance to blog. left two more papers on monday and tuesday den thats it! time to play! lols.

hmm. the papers were quite ok except for maths paper two and science. i studied for it. but don't know what the result will be. if i didnt even put in the effort. i think i will flunk my end of year exam. thats means my efforts are not wasted la. lols. although i did slack around. but most of the time i am studying. guai ok! hahahahas. tonight can slack le. coz next week is onli f&n and poa paper. which poa is the subject i am going to give up on. hahahahas.

i really hope this time round i could get good results as i really wanna get promoted. hahahas. i dun wanna let my efforts go to waste. if the results dun come out good. i go bang wall le lohs. hais. maybe it could be pure stupidity la. hahahas.

really wanna thanks ying jie and haziq for all the effort they put into me, teaching me bio and chem. hahas. dunno will disappoint u all not. becoz the papers are real hard. hahas.

a millions sorry to poy. *u noe i noe can already*

cant wait for all the results to be out. muz wait till next fri den will noe. coz wed and thurs no school.

and next wed i am gonna watch night movie wif jie, xian, lixia, faezah, qiuyan and ying tao. hahas. go out wif them very fun one lohs. lols. gonna really enjoy it coz i long time no enjoy liaos la. hahahas. very looking forward to it. muahahahahaha.

everything will turn out great!

我只对你有感觉...

2006-09-29T05:04:00.000-07:00

my ah ma is finnaly discharged from the hospital and back home finally. i miss her so much.

okie. haven't been blogging for days. hahahahas.

had been really mugging hard for my studies.got back some of the results. got top in class for english and i think geo. but i jus suck in maths. no matter how much hard work i put into my maths. i jus couldn't get it right. is it i suck or i am just stupid? pure stupid? i really don't have the confidence anymore. what should i do? i really feel so stressed up. miss kaur telling me to work hard and she is very disapointed in my results. i can feel that she is really sad over it. i dun wanna disappoint her. really. i dun wan to waste all her time and effort putting onto me and in the end thats what she get back. i jus hope that i can do well in this end of year. and i am trying all my best. be it fail or pass. i'm gonna do all my best. making sure that i do not disappoint her. thats my aim. if i fail again. i really wouldn't know wad to do anymore.

real intensive study starts tml. and i'm giving myself a break so that i could give it all my best from tml onwards. gonna force myself no matter what to study every single thing. not to leak out any. but i'm just afraid that i study so much. once i enter the room. my mind will be blank. thats the worst thing i ever hate. thats what happen to my maths. i really studied hard. everybody can see that. but when i was doing the paper. my mind was really blank. i didn't know what got over me. not to care so much. giving myself some tiny little confidence. i will just give everything a try and my best.

i really miss you. i just cant take my eyes off you.

2006-09-26T04:47:00.000-07:00

phew. my ah ma is alright now. she's feeling better but still staying in hospital. i'm really sorry for not having enough time to go and visit her. because my exams are really round the corner. which is next monday! i went to see her ytd and felt relieved. the whole week i cant visit her. hais. onli can wait till after exams? i'm gonna miss her very much.

fine. i'm really mugging hard for my exams and studying everyday except when sleeping and bathing or a bit of slacking time? lols. my head is gonna burst can?

lessons as per normal.

i failed my english summary. i hate it. i hate myself. i should have done better! what happen to me? i will not fail my EOY. i swear! fail and thats the end of me. did maths during f&n as miss yap wasnt here. i realised i could do and solve more better than last time. hardwork really do pay off. but i'm still very scared. hais. i need to buck up within this one week. hais. nvm. i will work hard. do as much as i can!

hahas. everyday tio caught by mrs tan. she cute la. she saw me at staircase and sae' jeerin, i thought school onli allow one ear stud in each ear?' den i sae orh smile smile den walk away. hahaas. today when studying at the study area there. she oso there mahs. i saw her. den i cover my ears. den she see and see and see. den ask me y i studying wif my hands covering my ears. muaahahahahahahaha. she very cute la. but i scared she serious and call me to remove it lohs. next time see her muz run liaos le lahs. lols.

hahas. its going 8. which means study time? lols.

2006-09-23T23:33:00.000-07:00

i can't cry. bottling in is so painful. like a big stone pressing onto my heart. somebody teach mi wad to do?

LET NOTHING HAPPEN TO MY AH MA. ITS TOO SUDDEN. I DUN WAN ANYTHING TO HAPPEN. I WOULD RATHER THE ONE WHO SUFFER IS MI. DO WHATEVER TO ME IF YOU WAN BUT LEAVE MY AH MA ALONE.

tears jus can't stop flowing even though i control hard not to let it flow. what should i do? what can i do? to make her feel better? to make her pain ease? to make her feel that i am wif her? i dunno. i dunno. i dunno. my mind is in a whirl.

I HATE MY LIFE!

2006-09-23T21:15:00.000-07:00

ytd woke up at around 11+. den started studying around 12. den study till afternoon. got slight headache. den stop studying le. den wanted to take a nap. but i dun hv the habit of taking a nap. so i couldnt fall asleep lohs. hahas. den around 4+ went to orchard wif my mother and sister.

damn good SHE is man. hahas. we both spent her money about 200+ lohs. muahahaha. jie bought one pants for $11, one clothes and skirt $79+, one pair of shoes $53. den i bought one shirt for $11, skirt for $34+. hahas. den SHE bought for HERSELF one pair of shoes for $56.
den our dinner cost a bomb because we went to thai restaurant. hahas. damn delicious can? lols. den she oso bought famous amos cookie for the first time man. lols. damn nice. i wanted to buy a slipper which i like it so much lohs. but she dun allow. hais. its damn nice and its in blue colour lohs. hais. damn regret not buying it lohs. hais. den walk all the way from orchard to PS. den took the mrt home. reach home around 10. was damn tired. den after bathing and everything. started studying again becoz i wasted one saturday.

love spending money!

2006-09-22T05:09:00.000-07:00

haven't been blogging for a week. i miss my blog. lols. will be even busier from next week onwards. hais. i'm drained. sleeping late and waking up so early is getting me more and more deteriorated.

well. i have forgotten what i have been doing this one whole week except for studying and studying. i shall blog what happen today la. cant remember what i had done le. lols.

today as usual. went to school and everything. lols. had p.e today. it was the first time i enoyed p.e. lols. we played floorball. lols. really played so hard can? lols. its damn fun and sweat freaking much can? lols. its really nice to play a nice game once in awhile lahs. coz really get to enjoy it lohs. lols. hahas. the game was really played well. first time me and poy participate and played such a nice game can? lols. okok. it was a great chance for me to vent out all my stress and troubles. shouted here and there. lols.
den after that was on the way up to class. ask miss goh. how did we do for the test. she said i didnt do really well. i was so shocked and worried man! was worrying all the way la. den had maths lesson. do and do and do lohs. lols. den finally english lesson le. time to get back results. and i found out i got 30/30. lucky lahs. miss goh really scared me lahs. lols. den i tell her she scared mi. she luff and luff. lols.

den after recess. walking up to class tt time. someone came to pull my hair seh. den when i turn back. i found out that is daniel. alamak. den he smile smile smile. den i walk away. lols. den had poa test. it is freaking difficult can? and i am not prepared for it anyway. lols. anyway i already had the thoughts of giving up poa liaos le. i feel like dropping out when i reach sec 4. coz i really cant cope wif it. i dun wan it to affect my results and everything. so mayb it will be a better choice for mi to drop la huh? den i do the test. when hand in. teacher damn sarcastic la. he say i write alot of things. lols. den i added myself. 'all wrong one la'! lols. den he keep laugh laugh laugh lohs. lols. den went down for social studies lohs. getting back test paper oso. got 6/8. hais. not very happy wif it la. should have done better de. nvm. i will work hard for the end of year exam. muahahaha. i wan to do well in it. and i hope i can do it la huh. lols.

den after school went straight to find ms kaur to teach us maths. den start to do maths once we sat down. do do do do do. do till around 2++ den we decided to go liaos le. since ms kaur oso busy wif my classmates. den we jus go le lohs.

here goes the nice part of my day. decided to go causeway wif wai ting and poy to buy deoderant la. lols. den we dunno to take 187 or 188 to reach causeway. den we think think think. like is 199 la. den we went to take 188 lohs. lols. den in the bus. we keep asking each other whether the bus really got go causeway not. den suddenly a auntie turn back and tell us that 188 goes to chua chu kang! alamak! we took the wrong bus. she oso added that is 187 that goes to causeway. wtf. we should have taken 187 la. lols. so dumb of us rite? our road direction abit lousy la. cannot be blame. lols. so cute la. never. reach lot 1. pray so hard that there oso got sell lahs. lols. den lucky have lahs. den we at there play wif the deoderant. see which one nice. lols. finally. we choose our deoderant lohs. den we went down to makan la. coz poy and wai ting very hungry. lols. den walk around and around but couldnt decide what to eat. lols. they both bought their things. but i havent. sians. lols. den at last. i decided to eat mango pudding. =.= hahahas. den after eating. we decided to go home le lohs. since abit late liaos le. lols. den poy and wai ting top up their card. den we see that the mrt coming for both our trains le. den we rush all the way up. lols. but i was nearly stuck la. couldnt get my freaking wallet out of my bag. lols. but eventually get to board the train la. lols. its really damn fun can?

hahahs. why am i here? because i decided to slack for a day. i am really too tired to do anithing. nothing will be going into my brain at all. so y not give myself a break for today? and give it all my best to study tml onwards? i have been very guai everyday le. let me be bad for a day. jus a day will do. give me a break from everything. all the things including studies and things tt i shall not mention. it's giving me too much stress.

i just could'nt treat it as nothing happen. i just can't.

you are the only answer to it.

2006-09-16T21:34:00.000-07:00

well. see how guai i am.

woke up ytd at 1. started studying straight after my meal. studied till 10 at night. hahas. headache. den stop studying le. den slack till 2 wif jie. den went to bed.

today woke up at 10 and started studying. den study till now. decided to have a break coz there's still long way to go. hahahas. i'm gonna bomb myself with studies everyday.

muahahaha.

under stress.....

2006-09-15T05:18:00.000-07:00

okok. really did try my best to study hard. and i really did. no time to online. no time to watch tv. no time to do everything. every night wad i can do is to study. ytd oso study study study. coz today got test. dunno will do well not lehs. hais hais hais. dunno lohs. nothing much happen lohs. den today after school. had appointment with ms kaur to study maths. hahahahas. 2 more weeks to exams. everybody work hard and jia you!!! gonna slack for a day. tml start chiong chiong chiong! muahahaha

not much to sae. hais.

2006-09-13T07:01:00.000-07:00

is not i lazy to post hors. is no time man!

everyday study study study onli. go school study. remedial. go library study. come home study. everything is about study in my life this few days. give mi a break!

forgotten about what happen this few days actually. hahas.

okok. ytd went to school. den wad happen in the school i forget liaos le lehs. lols. went to library wif poy to study. hahas. den we enjoyed ourselves there la. damn funny when the two of us are tgt. lols. den minhui came and join us after her remedial. den we went to eat honeydew sago, mango sago and fruit combo sago. lols. we love eating sago can! lols. found out that minhui can eat damn fast. but only honeydew sago! lols. funny la she. hahahas. den after that went home lohs.den it was study study study again. lols.

today met poy, wan jun, minhui for breakfast. ate and chat along. after that went to school lohs. den took back f&n test. got 39/50. hais. not very good lohs. sians. wanted to get higher marks de lahs. lols. oso got geo test back. got 10/16. not good oso. sians lahs. i must study harder liaos le lohs. den after school got remedial. at first it was so pathetic. onli 4 turn up for remedial as all the boys including poy and weimon need to attend to d&t coz they never finish their produc.t lols. den jiayun, wan jun, wai ting and me turned up for the remedial onli. ms kaur was damn stunned. lols. after 15 minutes. 3 malay gals came. but the attendance was still damn pathetic lahs. lols. den study study study again lohs. lols. den went home with poy and minhui. chatted and laugh along our way again. lols. we love to joke la! hahahahahas. reached home. had my one and only entertainment which is watch tv! watched for one hour of ge dou den started studying at 8. den study till now. i gonna sleep liaos le. i am freaking tired can??? sians sians sians. yawnz!

2006-09-09T19:17:00.000-07:00

omg omg! somebody called jie and said she is one of the judges assistant ytd. den wants her to join music clinic. she said jie got the potential but jus needed to be groom! muahaha. i knew she can make it. but the prob is now. where do we get the money for her to join music clinic sia. hope tt there's a way lahs.

hais.

2006-09-09T08:23:00.000-07:00

woke up at 7. went out at 8. chiong down to toa payoh HDB hub by cab. the uncle even wished jie good luck. haha. when we reached there. it was already like omg lahs. so many ppl lohs! guess the first gal wad time was there? 9pm ytd night la. siao man! den we were already 1000++ behind le lohs. den took application form le den we queue up lohs. den when start le. quan yi feng came to our place to interview. den i think jie was caught in the camera le! hahas. funny lahs. den later got ppl come give queue number. call us come back at around 4. hahas. den we faster chiong to kbox to sing lohs. den when reach kbox. kbox oso haven open lohs. hahas. den muz queue again. den there was this two gals queueing up with us. they damn cute lohs. hahas. joke around tgt lahs. they oso joining the audition de. lols. den ate lunch in the kbox lohs. den after that went to see the performance. i miss derrick hoh wei jian! finally get to see him again liaos le lahs. hahas. he is so damn cute can! den stood there from 12.30 to 4+ kao. leg and whole body damn tired. den jie jus started to get in onli. went to BK to sit down coz really cannot tahan liaos le. ate wif zixian and faezah lohs. den its around 5++ going 6 le. den jie's turn finally gonna come. went into the auditorium. den waited quite long again la! den suddenly the judges sae wanna go eat dinner le. make everybody wait so long. sians lahs.

jie came out le. but she wasn't in becoz of a high note she cant reach. the judges ponder whether to let her in for very long. but hais. she didn't get in. but nvm. its okie. i believe she can do it de! there's always other chance! jia you jia you jia you!

2006-09-07T05:15:00.000-07:00

muahahaha. didnt know there was such kind hearted ppl left in this world man!

someone called me and ask for jeerin ong. hahahas. den she said she found my wallet. den she ju stay beside my block seh. den i went to find her. den i check. she didnt even touch a cent inside lahs. there was around $50 lohs. but she never touch them at all! wow. didnt realised such good ppl still exist lahs. muahahaha. finally man! i got money again liaos le. muahahahahah! phew!

went to remedial today again. den after that went to coffeeshop to eat lunch. den poy, beryl, jiayun and me went to library. den we really studied lohs. den before we study. we went to buy tidbits to eat while studying. hahas. den we really studied for 3 hours today. muahaha. den we all hungry again le lahs. lols. den we went to mac eat again. muahaha. this few days with them is only eat eat eat lohs. we four confirm fat de lahs. lols. den after that went popular shopping. muahahaha.

give me some time before i can get to let it go. jus some time.

2006-09-06T03:48:00.000-07:00

met poy at 8.30 for breakfast. den went for remedial.

after remedial. went down to xiao gu house n chiong to bugis by cab. hahas.

went to temple wif xiao gu, ah ma and ying jie. den after that eat lunch. den went to san gu de shop. sat down n chit chat. after that went shopping.

den there was this few ppl. came and approach us. ask us whether we can spare some time and let them cut our hair. omg. then knew is a bunch of taiwanese hairstylist lohs. den we go lohs. free some more seh. den cut went up that time. saw damn lots of ppl. we can ask for any kind of hairstyles or wad lohs. i jus call her anyhow cut lohs. den turn out. mi, xiao gu and ying jie hair almost same same de. den see other ppl de. all oso same same de lohs. hahahas. their kind of style now is like straight straight hair infront. so funny lahs. sians. dunno when my hair will grow again liaos. hais.

hahas. ok lahs. never regret or wad lohs.

time for tv and homework!!

2006-09-05T04:00:00.000-07:00

you know i wun let go, so let me go instead.

was damn tired ytd. slept at 10. hais. dunno y. but i didnt have a good sleep though out the night. went to school for remedial. remedial remedial......

he didnt tok to me. not at all. T.T

nahs. smile because he is happy. =)

maybe we should be jie and di once again. as we said. jie and di forever huh? in this way maybe we will be as close as that time.

2006-09-04T04:28:00.000-07:00

call jie wake mi up at 7.15 but i woke up at 8.20

hahas. den prepare le. den went to jurong to study wif jiayun and beryl. waited for this two gal for half an hour. there so hot some more lahs. make mi wait so long. sians. hahas. nvm lahs. i understand. stupid people is lidat de. muahahaha. okie lahs. nvm. den we went to popular to buy things. after that went to the library. went to the 4th floor but it was already ack. so early in the morning, everybody start studying liaos. can dun so guai not? muahaha. den we studied at the 3rd floor. lucky got space for us lohs. hahas. den studied till noon. we put our things at the table and went for lunch. opps. very bad of us. dun let other ppl use. hahas. but we so damn scared our things kena stolen lohs. hahas. but in the end nv lahs. den poy came to join us for lunch den pei us study. hahas. but she nv study lahs. she at there find storybook onli sia. den after that. we created logo and motto for our club. lols. it was so damn fun alright? lols.

den after that. we go n eat again. sians. go out wif them. cfm become broke and fat de lohs. but nvm lahs. hahahas. fat den fat together lohs. lols.

u're the reason i smile....

what can i do to make our relationship as close as last time? teach mi how.

2006-09-02T03:43:00.000-07:00

y do i feel the sense of insecurity? y do i sense that u may leave mi anytime? y do i feel the sense of jealousy?

but y doesn't i have the urge to voice out everything to u?

someone tell me what to do?

a yes or a no?

remain like this or be jie and di again?

i feel that we were closer last time. ever since that day, we weren't that close anymore. T.T

maybe i am jus being paranoid or jus making myself so stress up. maybe u dun feel wad i feel becoz u dun realli care?

still rmb the first day. i jus couldn't believe my eyes u noe? that msg u send. and everything. i jus couldn't believe. and u said u wanted to wait for mi. its like almost impossible.

i still prefer the days that we were so close.

i dun wanna noe, if u r playing me....

2006-09-01T05:05:00.000-07:00

i miss you.

woke up in the morning to go to the airport. reach there around 8. too early le. hahas. went to eat eat breakfast wif wai ting and beryl lohs. hahas. den after tt waited for our china frens to come. den we saw a bus arriving. cfm them la! hahas. den went to see them. den su jing gave mi a letter. hahas. very touchd after reading the letter. i really love them so much. hahas.

den photo sessions starts. took alot of photos. smile till mouth cramp le lohs. continuos of ppl taking photo wif us. muahaha. like we are some big idol liddat. lols. den after tt waited for them to check in lohs. den beryl and laahariz went to send up oso. den after that up came over to us. jus to chat chat? lols. den continue taking pics lohs. lols. very very fun lohs. den hug here and there wif them. dun bear to leave sia. hais.

den after tt we chat chat chat. den i'm officially the secretary of a club. lols.! up is a new member! lols. shhhhh. hahahahas.

when they went into the departure hall. we cried. actually i didnt wan to cry. but when i see shu ting cry. i cant control lohs. she is really cute and nice. she oso cried like hell lohs. hais. gonna miss them all liaos le. i jus cant bear to let them leave. hug everythem and bid farewell. hais. dunno when will we get to see each other again. den yu ting sae we will get to go to china tgt again. i'm so touched. hahas.

after this whole thing, i realised i got so close to yuting and laahariz le. and we are in the same club. muahaha. we had so much fun travelling here and there. lols. really had lots of fun lohs.

i love our club!

2006-08-31T05:31:00.000-07:00

lost my wallet again. hais. dun wanna tok about it.

tml gonna send the china frens off le. i/m gonna be damn sad. hais. cried today oso. coz alot ppl cry. i cant see ppl cry de. hais.

i really miss u so much. although i see u but i dun get the chance to tok to u. hais. miss chit chatting wif u in school. missing that day i sat beside u. miss everything about u. i get to see u the whole morning. but we didnt even tok. T.T
my eyes are always on u. i jus cant control. pardon mi for that. X)
when can i get the chance to spend my time wif u?

i jus wanna let u noe tt. no matter ups or downs. i will be there for u. i wan u to noe that i will love u always.

all this is dedicated to my beloved pig.

2006-08-30T05:15:00.000-07:00

didnt online for about erm. 4 days?

sunday.
went to school early in the morning to fetch my fren from china! yeah/ rushed back home by cab. hahas. den put down her luggage and chiong down to orchard. hahas. spent quite alot of money lahs. den our lunch was treated by wai ting's mother lohs. we went to eat crystal jade la. so ex lohs. thanks wai ting' mum. it was damn nice lohs! den we seperated after the lunch. me and wan jun went bugis wif them. den shop shop shop. den went to find san gu. hahas.

at nite, met up wif wai ting they all again at bugis. den travel to lao pa sat. den at there, yuting and laharis and mr sin oso joined us lohs. den we eat eat eat till 9 plus. den wai ting mum and mr sin give mi money take cab home. so nice of them. thanks so much.

monday.
woke up damn early to travel to school as per normal. she oso have to wake up so early. poor thing. hais. den went to class as per normal. den at nite, dua yi brought us to swensens lohs. den went back home after that. den chiong homework and everything and studied for my test.

tuesday.
everything as per usual. class, lessons and everything. hahas. but at night went to visit ah ma in hospital wif my fren. den after tt went to the kopitiam to eat dinner tgt lohs. den had lots of fun chatting wif jie and my fren. hahas. den went home after that.

today.
woke up early to eat breakfast tgt wif jie and my fren. hahas. actually wanted to eat mac de. but haven open. den went to eat ol chang kee lohs. hahas. den after that had photo taking sessions. lols.

she is really a nice fren. i really enjoyed my time wif her. its the first time i dun dislike china ppl. all this batch of frens whu came to our sch are so damn nice and friendly. i like them so much.!!!
hope could stay in contact wif them lohs. hahas. tml is the last day to chill out wif them le. gonna miss them so much. den fri gonna send them off bahs. T.T

should i smile or cry?
28/08/06 happiest moment ever.

i will treasure every bits of moment spent wif you. <3

2006-08-26T06:52:00.000-07:00

the story goes.

wake up early in the morning to go school. going out wif the china students. met them at changi and went to the changi village. walk there for around 2 hrs. somehow finish walking the whole changi?? hot like hell! sweating like hell! after that went to little india. den chinatown. was very happy but.....

a call came.

jeerin:hello mummy
HER:where r u?
jeerin: chinatown
HER:meet u at outram
jeerin:for wad?
HER:wad for wad?!?!?! go visit ah ma la! forget it!

jeerin doesn't know exactly whats she wans. didn't know she wanted to visit grandma. jeerin thought she was about to go home and jeerin could reach home faster in chinatown rather than going to outram. who knows? this is the response she get. she cried.

jeerin msged HER.

jeerin: mummy i going home now. i go buy dinner myself.

HER reply.

HER:u buy or dun buy dinner is none of my bloody business. u make mi fed up u dun bring ur guest back to MY HSE understand!!!!

jeerin cried when she saw the msg in thr mrt.

how embarrassing of her to cry. but she cant control it.

cried and cried.

reach home but have no keys to enter. sit at the staircase and cry n cry. called her kor.

jeerin:kor. i really feel like jumping down from the 72 storey building.
kor:wad happen? where r u now?
jeerin:outside house with no keys to enter.
kor:u go to compass point. i go there now.

10 mins later.

jeerin cried again when she saw kor.

kor settled everything wif my aunt. went to aunt hse

jeerin cried n cried non stop.

jeerin went to aunt hse n aunt cooked for jeerin. isin't tt touching?

the ones who stay by u r the ones whu really love u. treasure them! kor who rushed down from his house during a mahjong game. aunt who cooked for jeerin who is starving? thats wad family are for.

recap:
HER: u buy or dun buy is none of my bloody business! u make mi fed up u dun bring ur guest back to MY HSE understand!!!!

jeerin doesnt have a hse at all. same goes for her sister. although homeless. we are not sad about it. we rather sleep in the streets den in HER HSE!
it doesn't matter much. coz HER HSE is onli a place to sleep. jeerin can sleep anywhere.

HER came to pick jeerin. reached home.

HER: U NEXT TIME BETTER DUN SAE FOR WAD?!?!?! WAIT TILL I FINISH MY SENTENCE!!!!

jeerin wondered. HER didn't intend to continue her sentence thats why she answered her for wad? wads wrong with saying for wad oso?

jeerin confused.

end of story.

conclusion:
jeerin hates HER to the core!

2006-08-25T06:53:00.000-07:00

muahaha. got 9/12 for social studies. lols.

heard from jiayun that my eng got top in class. muahaha. damn happy lahs.

went airport to fetch the china students today. hahas. my fren still remembers mi! muahaha. we all were damn high when we saw jacob there. lols. den follow by the china students. we got so high and wave n shout frantically. lols. den after that. they got onto the bus and proceed to BUSH for the night. den wai ting, wan jun and mi went off wif my kelvin tay. he is really a nice VP cum fren to us lahs. lols. den we walk to the mrt station lohs. den when we came to a cake shop at the airport. mr tay insisted on treating us to eat something. we refused to let him buy, but den he just ordered 4 tiramisu. one for each of us. we were like damn guilty lahs. make him spend money. and is nt cheap alright. one small one for $3.30? den took the train tgt. hees. he is really so nice to us lahs. lols.

got my new specs le. muahahahas

gonna be damn busy for about 4 to 5 days. mayb wun get the chance to online. boring. hosting my china fren. yeah. n i gonna wake up god damn early for tml and sun. need to reach school at 7.30 tml. and 9 for sun. going out wif the china students tgt wif the teachers and they all. den sun fetching my fren back and den proceed on to bring her around singapore. will gonna be quite tired yeah?

nvm. when i was there, she was the one taking care of mi. now its my turn to take care of her? lols. am i good? hahas.

gotta sleep early tonight to prevent being late for tml's outing.

seeing that makes my heart bleed.

2006-08-24T06:03:00.000-07:00

didnt blog ytd as blogger seems to have some prob. ok. fine i forget wad i wanted to post ytd. hahas. okie. i scord 70/100 for my chi. damn happy but still not satisifed with it. i aimed for 80. but turn out only 70. hais. gonna work harder huh? lols.

flunk poa ok? hate it man. got 11/35. hais. dun like it la. sians de.

not in a good mood at all. dunno y. i tink i'm mad, crazy. mad and crazy over something i shouldn't be thinking of.

thats all.

2006-08-22T04:45:00.000-07:00

pass my eng. but not wif flying colours. hais. sians. got 15/25 onli. sucks man.

today de maths. i realli cant cope! hais. i need to buck up on this chapter le. tml remedial. die die call teacher teach mi. hahas. today damn sleepy becoz ytd study till 12. muahaha. chinese was quite easy. easier den the last paper. i should pass this time. will nt fail le. coz i did all my best. hahas.

den today mi n poy keep wanna suck each other's bag? yucks. hahas. she is disgusting!

after school. we all went to causeway point for our SEOUL GARDEN! hahas. it was damn full la ok? lols. the food ain't really damn tasty la. but still can make it. there's this guy whu very good la. his service damn good lohs. den joke wif us. teach us how to cook well all this. lols.

we ate till around 3+ den tt guy tell us dun so early go. coz 5 gt sushi. lols. den we decided to go for a walk walk. den come back. lols. den we made ice kachang. mine is traingular in shape. wad the hell! so cute rite? lols. okie la. ice kachang nt nice. lols. ice cream not bad la. lols. den 5 le mahs. den we all chiong for the sushi. lols. den eat eat awhile. becoz we got alot of food wastage. den we all count 1 2 3 n run out. opps. scared tio charge for food wastage. lols. cannot go there le lahs. later the person recognise us. lols.

after that, we went to take neoprints. hahas. we will always take neoprints de lahs. lols. den take take take. decorate decorate decorate. den give give give. den go home le. lols. it was quite late le lahs. den most of us need to go home. got CURFEW la! hahas. okie lahs.

waiting for friday to come. muahahaha. mayb gotta go fetch the china students from the airport. muahaha. i'm happy alright?

its gonna jus remain the same. =)

2006-08-21T04:38:00.000-07:00

muahahaha. once again i pass my maths test. damn happy man! 20/35. miracle huh? lols. freaking happy lahs. i'm satisfied wif it now. but i aiming higher! unbelievable huh?

i'm gonna pass my chinese test tml. tonight muz burn midnight oil and study double hard for it. muahaha. my aim is to get 80 and above. i will try all my best. muahaha. no more failing of chinese for mi. i feel that its a shame la. duno why. lols.

made new specs liaos. black and blue de. hahahas. okie. quite like it la. its not bad. hahahas. okie. i am damn happy today alright?

dunno for wad reason la. hahahahahahas. dunno lehs. i'm mad!

finally the china students are arriving in singapore this fri. i'm damn looking forward to it. i can see my frens again. muahahaha. gonna spend 3 days wif her. i'm gonna love it so much.

time to study for my test. chiong hard for flying colours results~

2006-08-19T21:34:00.000-07:00

muahaha. i am 15 years old liaos le! lols.

ytd was my b'dae. den went to have swensens for my lunch. then went to 77th street to buy bag. den saw one very nice de bag. white in colour. but was stained.. wtf. so cannot buy. den after that. went causeway point to see other designs. den in the end i bought a billabong black and gold colour de. hahahas. damn like it lohs. de after that we went for sakae for dinner lohs. thats all for that liaos le. hahas.

tml test results for maths is out. hope i can pass!

2006-08-18T05:38:00.000-07:00

didnt blog ytd because was busy studying the whole night. got ss test today. hope i can pass. coz i really study hard for it. hees.

heard a good news from miss kaur that my maths really improve. hahahas. hope i pass man! then there will be chances tt i will not get F9 le. hahahas. i'm gonna chiong chiong chiong. hahahas. wanna get into the course i wan. hees.

celebrated my b'dae at ah ma hse. was damn happy. hees. jie and yingtao bought mi a cake. on top of it written ' happy birthday jeerin'. muahahaha. they damn good to mi. had a lot of fun there. we ate kfc and cut the cake after tt. hees. really enjoyed myself. they are really my family. if i dun hv them. i tink i wouldn't be here le. hahas. will upload the photos soon once i received them. muahahas. tml gonna celebrate again. gonna eat sakae sushi. but nt very lookin forward to eat. coz is SHE bring mi n jie go eat de. sians lahs. i'm gonna call HER buy expensive things for mi. i dun care. she gt lots of money to spend lahs. hahahas.

once clock strike 12. its my b'dae! hahahas.

wish myself happy b'dae~

message to jie: jie, ah ma, yingtao, and my family. thanks for everything u had done. i had a wonderful birthday celebration. i love you all~ muackies.

2006-08-16T05:32:00.000-07:00

today's mood: super down~

i failed my chinese class test. 47/100! i blamed myself for not doing well. i swear that i will study hard for the upcoming common test if i fail to pass again, i'm nt sure wad i will do. i really dunno wad happen to mi. i actually failed my chinese. its really first time in my life. i dunno wads going on.

i am studying real hard from now on~ studying n studying is all i can do. tml is chem re-test. i'm gonna get good results for it. i'm sure i can do it. jus here to post and i'm gone to study again.

time's up. TIME FOR STUDY!

2006-08-15T04:14:00.000-07:00

woots~ 4 more days to my b'dae. hahahas.

got back chem test. got onli 7/25. hais. sadden. i wanna do well for this thurs retest. so here i am blogging. not online at all. after blogging. i'm going to do my summary 1st draft and get prepared for fri test. after doing 1st draft. the leftover time will be the time for mi to study my chem. i'm reali gonna do well in it. i promise. hahas. test test test~ study hard for this two months and i'm gonna be free! jus put in all my effort into this two months. and i know its not going to be in vain. i'm gonna aim at least a c6 or c5 for my maths. i hope i can. hais. i tink i'm mad. thats too far a jump from f9 to c6. but no matter what. i'm gonna give my best shot.

went ah ma hse.ying jie was oso there. saw her present for mi liaos. hahas. thanks so much for the roses and the watch. hees. i love it alot.

okie. off i go to do my work and revision. =)

JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!

2006-08-14T04:31:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah. maths test finally over. but i tink i did quite badly. hais. disapponted with myself. received EOy time table le. its high time to start intensive studying now. i will give all my shot to get good results. try all my best to push myself up. i know i can do it!

went to watch click wif poy. muahaha. it was a damn funny show. but in the end. mi n poy cry like hell. coz ending sad sad de. hahahas. okie. we ate nachos and poy stained her shirt. hahahas. funny sia. but we got ourselves damn tired becoz of this movie. muahaha. finished maths test. we faster chiong to enter. running n running. dashing across roads n everything. and one more thing. POY. I NOE UR PIN NUMBER! muahaha. so do u noe mine. lols. okie fine. its a secret alright? lols. ****** thats urs! hahahas. okok. shhhhhhhhhh.

promised myself to start paying attention in class. and i reali did. i didnt sleep anymore in class. neither do i daydream. hahas. i tink i absorb much more into my brain now compared to last time. so i tink its not gonna be too difficult for mi already. i guess so?

many many things happened during the weekend. and i guess theres gonna be more. things are nt tt simple. I HATE YOU! dare treat us like piece of shyt. n i will treat u back like a piece of shyt. I HATE YOU I HATE YOU. lucky there are people around mi who brightens up my day. making my life easier to pass and making my day brighter! a mother scolding daughters wang ba dan? first time in my life i heard that man! cool man. next time i will never teach my daughter to sae all this. hahahahas. i believe in retribution, karma. WHAT GOES UP WILL COME DOWN!

2006-08-11T05:24:00.000-07:00

i pass my maths test! how great. i am reali damn happy about it. i'm gonna strive hard n pass my math common test on monday! i hope i can. hahas.

didnt skip IT eve though poy wants mi to. lols. did nth at the stupid IT today. lols. but we drank tiger beer n henessey. lols. shiok man. hahahas. shhhh. dun tell anybody. hahas. lols quite boring CCA man. lols. gonna take part in IT competition again. a video competition. muahaha. get more points. hahas. skip chinese remedial to do crystal planting. hais. dunno when den can grow successfully man. lols.

to neo law ang: i hate you to the core. from the day daddy passed away. i have never treated u as my mother anymore. i reali hate u to th core. i hate u so much that i might take a knife n stab into u for ultimate times. i cant control myself anymore. i reali will explode one day. dun force mi to do things i dun wan to. u will get ur retribution for doing all this. u noe how deep is the sea? the amount of hatred i have for u is deeper den the sea. more than the sand. higher than the mountains. imagine a daughter killing a mother. that would be the eadlines of the newspaper man! try mi~ try pissing mi off n i will make ur life miserable. dun expect mi to take care of u when u r old. mayb i will. giving u $1 per day. n doing all those things tt u did to us. but.... i dun wan my daughter or son to treat mi back like this as i believe in karma. so i will nt do all this to u. u either take care of urself. jus dun bother mi. i will go my way n u go ur way once i reach 21. i tink i will have return u the things i owe u. since u r so damn rich oso wad. keep some for urself when u r old. dun expect mi or jie to take care of u. i noe i am evil. but this is forced out by u. u deserve it!

2006-08-10T03:33:00.000-07:00

went kbox today. muahaha. met lin jie at cine kbox at 11. we were the first to get in. lols. den sing alot alot of songs. we are supposed to end at 2. den the freakin lunch should come early de. den 1.30 liaos still have come. wad the. we were like damn hungry liaos lahs. den my set came first. den lin jie and jie still nd to wait very long. hais. den we hack care. 2+ liaos we were still singing. hahas. is the person never come n bill us wad. so we continue singing lohs. den jie had to rush to sch. so she took cab n went off. den i walk around at HMV wif lin jie lohs. bought ear sticks nia. so sians. den i had to go home oso. den left lin jie alone there. i felt so guilty. coz nobody pei her. den she dun wanna go home as she need to meet weihung after that. so she went to walk walk herself. reach home so early. oso dunno can do wad. boring sia. den use com till now lohs. hais. tml gonna take back maths n poa test paper liaos le. no hope de lahs. can pass i happy liaos le lohs. den next monday is maths common test. i gonna buck up during this weekend. study hard n try to at least get a passing mark. i have never pass my maths for long already. wad happen to mi man! hais.

9 more days to my b'dae. muahahahaha~

2006-08-08T21:23:00.000-07:00

ytd was great! raised $251~ yipee! hahaha.s thats my first time setting up bazaar. and it was quite succesful. from the start. it was not quite good. nobody was patronizing our stall. but after awhile. the crowd came. our candy floss was the "hot" item of all. hahas. freaking tired. stood all the way till 11.30. didnt get to sell finish all the items. next to our booth is 3b. they were doing dedications. hahas. heard alot of dedications from whu to whu. there was this. "pengwei love jiahui" hahahas. everybody was like so high lohs. shouting for them. hahahas. got mani mani is i love u to blah blah blah de all this lohs. lols. got quite alot more lahs. i didnt get the chance to walk around the bazaar. spent my $2 coupon. 50 cent treating andy to candy floss. $1.50 for supporting jiahui, buying her keychain. hahas. there goes my money.

finally the bazaar ended.

went to ah ma hse. was quite reluctant as i still don't know whether she is ok wif mi or not? when reach there. jie n yingtao was already there. stupid yingtao. always sae mi ben zhu. hahas. he den pig lahs. den ah boy sae he is yingtao xiao wan zi. hahahahas. i corrected ah boy. i said he is yingtao chao ji da wan zi. hahas. he is reali a good guy lahs. lols. still help mi massage. hahas. cant wait for him to treat mi to steamboat. lols. collapse straight away after the lunch. was freaking tired. slept for about 1 hour+++. den wake up was having a severe headache. but still need to travel back to sengkang. sians. met pengwei kor in the mrt. didnt believe that he pick up singing lessons man. and is li si song de music school. if i'm not wrong. thats wad he told mi lahs. lols.

today is national day! quite boring oso lahs. hahas. stay at home lohs. dun wanna go out wif 'her' lahs. hate her so much lahs. not interested in going out wif her. sians. tml gonna go out wif kailin jie n jie. gonna go kbox to sing all our hearts out. hahahas. its gonna be fun man! i' sure of it. hahas.

if i could make u mine...

2006-08-07T04:37:00.000-07:00

mdm wong never come. no bio test!

muahaha. slept a long time in school today. dunno y i so damn tired. sians. needa buck up wif my studies. but dunno how. hais. tml need to set up bazaar. quite excited. wondering how much can we raise. hahas. i chatted wif him again. but is jus some casual chat. asking how is he n whatso ever. boring huh? lols. nvm. i dun give a damn to it too. so its rather ok for mi already. not going to noe so much about him. he lead his life n i lead mine. =)

2006-08-06T03:55:00.000-07:00

siansation.. slacked at home n play maple. although i noe is not good. but den i jus couldnt control myself. i jus play n play. hahas. nth much happen thoh. jus miss him so much.. tml is gonna be a great day. i hope.

2006-08-05T04:03:00.000-07:00

met up wif wan jun and liyang. den went to do the things for bazaar. draw up the poster n did some things for the wrappers. den after finish doing. it was quite early. so we went to the arcade see ppl play. den i finally couldnt control myself. i saw the winnie the pooh n chipmunk. they were reali damn cute. so i bought a $2 card. den started to catch them. we nearly caught it. but it drop! my heart sank man! den finish the $2 le. i went to top up another $2 wishing that we could catch them. but den. we still failed. i used $4 to get some choclates and sweets rather than pooh n chipmunks. hais.. i am waiting for superband to star. omg! today is the final. pray hard that milopeng or rather lucify will win. pray pray pray...

2006-08-04T05:23:00.000-07:00

today happy sia. went to celebrate poy and lishi b'dae. wan jun, minhui and me gave them a big surprise. made them so happy lahs. lols. so cute seh. den there was this big group of ppl beside our table. when we serve the cake. they were singing b'dae song for poy n lishi oso. den suddenly they sing oso. coz one of their frens oso celebrating b'dae. muahaha. den we cut two slices of cakes for them. so happy sia. then we eat until so damn full lohs. like the skirt wanna burst off lahs. lols. den after that we went more than words. den poy n lishi bought present secretly for each other. lols. so cute. den they both wan cry. make mi wan cry oso. lols. like so sweet hors? hahas. took neoprints tgt. so nice sia. lols. will update the pics soon.

happy b'dae to my two besties~ poy n shi. hope that you two are really touched and happy today. =)

2006-08-03T05:14:00.000-07:00

me wif poy ~

me with the power ranger bag!
hais. cfm fail my poa n chem test. i studied so hard for my chem. but it turn out to be like tt. hais. nvm den. forget it. hais. work harder.

went to lot 1 after sch. intended to buy poy de present but den hais. sry poy...hais. i feel so guilty lahs. hais. nvm. will give ya a big surprise soon. hahahas.

okie. today my chinese lunar b'dae seh. muahaha. my mother bought 2 pieces of starbucks de cake. one oreo cheese and one strawberry. de i received a msg from my sis that. she bought cake for mi. some more she bought 2! omg. muahaha. gonna be eating 4 cakes man.

sians. gonna study for my maths son......

2006-08-02T03:59:00.000-07:00

wonder if she is still angry. hais. perhaps she is.

didnt complete my chinese test. left two questions half done. hais. i need to buck up in my chinese. i reali need to. today had f&n cooking exams. didnt go very smoothly. all my dishes doesnt taste right. and all looks weird. after all. i still manage to finish all my dishes. i love it. i love to cok. but is not a good cook. hais.

got 16/20 for my geo test. hahas. quite happy with it. but i know i can do better than this. hmm. strive hard for the next paper den.

tml having poa n chem test. hais. quite stress. i noe nuts about poa. but tt day i manage to complete the work by myself by following the formula teacher gave. i hope the test would be easy tml. i began to love chem. its fun! calculating all th formulas and everything. its not tt difficult if i pay attention to lessons. isint it? hahas.

17 more days to my b'dae....... X)

2006-07-31T04:03:00.000-07:00

i didnt mean to lie. i hope u r nt angry wif mi. i felt so guilty and dun dare to face u anymore. wad am i going to do? i hope u will forgive mi pls. i am so sry....

was supposed to have chem n poa test. but den suddenly all dun hv. hais. dunno wad lahs. sians lohs. i am so stressed up by everything. my mood is getting worser. i beg for forgiveness. hais. wad can i do to make u forgive mi? hais. i am trying my best to study hard. i wanna get good results. i believe that i can do it. hais. i hope so.

after sch. went library wif poy. went to have lunch before going lib. she is the one whu always makes mi luff like mad. my aiai. hahas. always. both of us love to joke. always joking around n making each other luff like hell. at least there is some laughter in my life. not too bad. if not my life would be in darkness. hais.

living in an unhappy life....

2006-07-30T03:20:00.000-07:00

2006-07-30T02:44:00.000-07:00

tired. chiong vcd till 4am in the morning. den woke up at 1pm to eat lunch. den chiong 1 more piece of vcd. den was studying from 2+ till 5. hais. okie. i dun understand poa at all.! so dumb ya? hope tml can come faster becoz all the things are still in my head now. i dun wanna forget them.

tok to him jus now n know tt he is happy. den thats good. wish that he is happy always den. dun wanna noe more about him.

i got nth much to sae le.

2006-07-29T06:27:00.000-07:00

early in the morning 9+. woke up in the morning to go swensens eat breakfast wif jie. hahas. so freaking damn nice and its so worth it lahs. okie. den chiong one peice of vcd den she went out. den was studying from 12+ to 3.30. studied chem and did social studies homework. tml will do maths n study poa n revise abit more on chem. very tired. not the studious type. so played maple to relax myself. played till now. okie. i noe i jus cant control myself and jus study for a day. i will die. reali. i promise to study tml. i will do it de. i hope to get good results. hotel management is my goal. my aim for mi to study. hahahas. hope i can do it. okie. gonna chiong vcd wif jie now.

2006-07-28T05:22:00.000-07:00

muahaha. skip IT lessons for a movie.

wanted to skip the stupid chinese remedial. but the idiot teacher jus wun let us go. fine. didnt wan to create trouble or she calling my mother. sians. she is getting on my nerves. she likes to kb one lahs. hais. reali dun like her man. wanted jie to help mi bluff her. but den no excuse to sae. so i jus stay for her lesson lahs. every other class no nid remedial. she sae every fri is chi remedial. its like. wth. nvm lahs. hais. jus tt i so freaking stress.

dun tink i can cope wif my test next wk. schedule for my test next week.
monday- poa and chem test
tuesday- maths and chi test
wed- f&n cooking exams(EOY), bio and chi ting xie.
fri- project work presentation

argh! someone help mi! all this test is killing mi! i cant cope wif it. and thereshomework for mi to be done.

the movie was great today. NACHO LIBRE. so freaking funny. hahas. love it man.

tml muz start wif all my studies. no computer allowed. hais. tough for mi man!

2006-07-27T03:50:00.000-07:00

early in the morning, was pissed by that fucking it chairman. i stays at sengkang and he expects mi to go earlier for my duties. he cant seems o understand eng lahs. keep call mi go early when i already explain to him thats is the earliest i can. stupid gay. and he ask mi for inn chiat de b'dae. wa kao. so gay lahs. nvm. sae wan give him surprise all this. yucks. fine. i hate IT! gonna skip IT tml to go watch movies wif my darlings. muahaha. dun give a damn.

okie. mi and her was back to normal again. i tink is becoz *someone* wasn't here today. thats the reason i bet. nvm.

alvin was so damn funny. whenever i am in a bad mood. he would uses the *hooo!* sound to cheer mi up. hahas. and we almost everyday msg-ing each other. even in class. -.-
its like so lame. we are a few tables awy onli. hahas. his bill is gonna explode. lols.

i got 1.5/20 for my geo test. omg. luckily, we got retest. and i bet i would pass for the retest. coz i got study. *i hope so*

went to visit my dearest ah ma. i miss her so much. i promise myself to give her a call everyday. try to visit her once every wk. thats my promise. and i will do it. i wanna her to be happy in the rest of her life. no worries and sorrow. i hope i can do everything for her. i love her so much.

2006-07-26T04:15:00.000-07:00

first post in my new bloggy! muahahaha!

today wasn't a good day. i was pissed the whole day. well. fine. i am pissed every single day. jus becoz of all this things happening around mi. i cant take it anymore. being the middleman is not as fun as wad u tink. frenship is not as strong as wad i tink it is. people do change. well, change quite fast though. i can't adapt to people's changes. thats the reason i am troubled over things myself. nobody would understand.

nvm.

about him. hasn't contact him for a few days. i quite miss him. since he is happy. den let him be den. shall let go and lead my own life.

studies wasn't as easy. test are coming. tml having geo retest. next week, mother tongue, bio,chem and wad so ever. test test test~~ its killing mi soon.

stressed up wif everything! someone tell mi wad to do.